al exam practic

semalam kena jadi babysitter kejap. makcik tu nak bawak anak dia yang baru deliver baby pergi tandas, jadi dia cakap kat aku dalam bahasa Kannada la suruh tengok-tengokkan cucu dia. aku macam, "err...oh, ok!"

pastu budak tu nangis, terus cuak limasaat, pergi kat budak tu pastu dodoikan dia, pujuk dia tapi masih jugak nangis sebab lapar agaknya. siap masukkan jari dalam mulut lagi. comel!

rasa macam nak angkat pastu dukung dan dodoikan baby tu.
but i am in dilemma whether i am supposed to/ can hold the baby in my arms because then it would be unprofessional yet it is a humane thing to do. after all, i was sitting for my final exam. what would the examiner think if i was holding the baby when it was my turn to present my case and to be 'interrogated'.
apa jadi kalau tiba-tiba baby tu berak atau kencing kat atas kot putih, kan comot dan busuk je. kan? kalau bukan exam takpe lagi.

ok, it was really a dilemma.

oh ye, masa dodoikan mula-mula tu baby tu tanak berhenti nangis pun. tiba-tiba bila baca zikir dia senyap. tapi sekejap je la. waktu tu rasa macam nak membuntangkan mata sepet ku ini.





nota kaki:

• wrote this after my Community Medicine Practical Exam which was about one month back. I'm not sure why I didn't published it at that time. *wondering*

under average social skills

one of the few things that you should know about me:

I hate confrontation!

...which include case presention (bedside clinical teaching), presenting seminar etc.

i tend to be nervous and forget all vocabulary. mumble words, incomplete sentences, involuntary movements, sweating (peluh macam ada misai. haha~)

and i always feel bad after my presentation.. TT__TT

no matter how good my slides are, the way that i am presenting my topic is worst!

sedih oh! *sembunyi dalam gua*

bodoh sombong

Ignorance is a disease. 

Honestly, its hurt to be plain stupid.

blaja tinggi-tinggi tapi takde common sense tak guna jugak.
bodoh!
jangan rasa hebat nak sangat kalau kau tak boleh nak hormat orang lain.
tak payah jadi manusia lah, kalau takde perikemanusiaan.




nota kaki:

• tengok video matlutfi Hari Jubah pun boleh rasa terharu kejap. aku memang ada tekanan perasaan kot. undiagnosed subclinical emotional disturbance. hahaha~