i have so many questions.................

i wonder what has change..

long talk heals...^^

dila: mak, sorry la cakap merapu-rapu camni.. dah gila dah.. haha~

mak: eyt, tak boleh cakap camtu tau!

dila: tak boleh cakap ape? dah gila? *konfius*

mak: gi istighfar dulu...

dila: err.. ok, astaghfirullahaladzim.. so, kenapa tak boleh cakap camtu?

mak: ...

dila: (menyampuk) oh, ok dah faham.. sebab kata-kata kita tu satu doa kan? jadi takut kalau cakap camtu kita mendoakan diri jadi gila pulak.. i got it! *senyum*

*______________________________________*

mak: ada simpan gambar rumah kita tak?

dila: ada...

mak: tengok tak rumah kita masuk dalam majalah?

dila: oh ye ke? bila? nak tengok! majalah ape?

mak: majalah idaman.. tapi belum terbit lagi majalah tu pun..

dila: cehhh~ baru nak suruh tangkap gmbar majalah *gelak sakit perut kena tipu*

mak: alaaa... tomey2~

dila: hahaha~ *gelak macam gorila*

-___________________________________________________-


"Allah dah tentukan jodoh tu, tapi bukan sekarang. sabar, doa banyak-banyak."
*sengih sampai telinga*
baik mak, orang tak jadi nak kawen sekarang.

dila: mesti mak rasa orang ni budak-budak lagi nak cakap pasal kawen. tapi orang dah besar la, dah kena fikir pun.

mak: dila ingat mak fikir dila masih kecik lagi ke?

dila: errr.. hahaha~ (padahal dalam hati tadi macam nak sambung, "i'm a grown up, ok!" )

mak: ni tengah stress ke ape?



nota kaki:

• ok, dah rindu balik.....
• do you know, wallflower means someone who sees everything, knows everything, but does not say a word. a type of loner. seemingly shy folks who no one really knows. often some of the most interesting people if one actually talks to them. 

Cinta bukan mudah. Cinta bawa tanggungjawab yang berat ke bahu...

i bet everyone watched this video..



sungguhlah, cinta tu bukan mudah. bukan bunga-bunga cinta semata. bukan cukup setakat dalam hati ada taman. cinta itu pengorbanan. cinta itu setia. cinta itu semangat. cinta itu bawa tanggungjawab yang berat ke bahu.. bukan di dunia sahaja malah perjalanannya menempuh sempadan Akhirat..

takde la nak komen panjang lebar ke pasal video ni..
cuma aku teringat Ked, masa dia nak lamar Nawal..
since aku takde buku tu kat sini, jadi tak boleh nak buat ulangkaji..
haha~ novel pun boleh ulangkaji eh?

what i do remember is that Nawal told Ked to show her the pictures from Minn's wedding..
they met at the park and Ked showed her the pictures in his camera..
guess what?
the last picture: Ked was holding card(?) and proposed Nawal..
Nawal terus speechless... kuang3~

tapi kan, tak best la bila tak ingat ayat Ked kat situ..
so tak boleh nak cakap sweet ke tak.. =P

tapi aku macam suka ayat Nawal..

"It's not some kind of game or gamble yang you nak buat macam aci lut. It's all about building a family. A future. Call me too much or what, tapi the tanggungjawab is always really heavy to bear. Kalau I sebagai seorang wife, I want to be a devoted wife, a good mother, beloved by my in-laws and a lady who manages her family well, which is not easy. Tak kira sebanyak mana persediaan yang dibuat pun, mesti akan rasa takkan bersedia sampai bila-bila pun untuk langkah threshold tu."

"Kena ada somebody yang akan support me come hell or high water..."

shesshh~

lepas tengok video ni, aku ni asyik fikir pasal kawen je..

pening aku asyik fikir dan berangan bila nak kawen..

haha~

tapi semua orang cakap pasal kawen..

kakak senior sekolah merangkap anak guru besar sekolah rendah yang juga merupakan guru besar sekolah mak aku dah kawen minggu lepas..

lepas tu kawan aku balik ni abang dia nak kawen..

banyak pulak orang post gambar kawen kat fesbuk..

tadi call adik aku, dia cakap kazen aku yang tua setahun je dari aku nak kawen bulan 6 nanti..

mesti aku tak boleh nak attend wedding tu.. cehhh~ mencik la i camni..*gedik*

tapi kan, kalau aku tak fikir pasal benda lain seperti benda kawen-kawen ni, mesti aku homesick gila..

sekarang ni aku dah mula memasak benda pelik-pelik supaya takde la sedih sangat tak boleh makan tu, tak boleh nak makan ni..

tapi bila aku masak tak jadi macam mak aku buat, aku homesick.. *lap hingus*

to even think that i'll only go back in June, that's so depressing..

come on la, dila!

kata dah dewasa, mana aci nangis homesick gaya budak form 1 masuk hostel..

eh, aku manade nangis masa duduk hostel dulu..

adik aku je.. haha~ *kakak jahat*

nota kaki:

• tiba-tiba macam kekok pulak nak dukung baby tadi.. balik mesia kena culik baby orang lepas ni.. haha~
• lagi satu tiba-tiba, aku rasa nak kawen sekarang lah.. *tampar pipi kuat-kuat*
• semua orang pakat demam, tak pun balik rumah, tak pun tengah exam, takde orang nak dengar cerita aku.. T_T

of rage and killing

i'm just thinking.....

• is killing somebody going to end everything?
• is it what people want?
• is our rage and anger going to pay off?
• are we sure that fighting the violence with another act of violence means fair and justice?
• and what is going to happen after that?
• will we live in peace?
• or we just let our heart dies and not feeling anything?
• will we become selfish?
• we won't care about others as long as our need is fulfiled...
• is that so?

whoaaa~ banyaknye random thoughts in my mind..

semuanya gara-gara tengok satu episod Criminal Minds tu..

brief story: 

a girl has been abducted by a groups of teenagers. she was abducted along with her friend which also her neighbour. but unfortunately, her friend was strangled to death and all the identity has been obliterated. her dad was kinda a psychopath, but has not involved in any violence since they moved in this neighbourhood. bla bla bla....... so, he found out where his daughter was abducted. he was about to kill the guy by shooting him with the shotgun but a FBI agent came and tried to convince him not to. his daughter kept on telling him to shot the guy. "kill him, daddy! kill him!"

and guess what, he shot the guy dead on the spot.

kita rela jadi pesalah atau lebih rela jadi orang yang tertindas..

whatever we say in this worldy world might help us to escape punishment in 'dunya'..

what about 'akhirat' then? when everything can speak, everything will become witness to our acts..

bukan nyawa tu milik Allah ke?

kenapa pulak kita rasa yang kita berhak untuk cabut nyawa orang lain?

i think too much, ain't i?

i know, can't help but yet i kinda like it.. =P

hahaha~

weirdooooooooo

nota kaki:

• baru habis preliminary exam hari ni after 2 1/2 weekis of suffering.. (suffer la sangat kan? ^^)
• please pray for coming final exam which in January, insyaAllah~

Surely We created man of the best stature (95:4)

"remember that you're perfect,because God makes no mistake. if you find yourself lacking,then work it like what He has willed you to - towards the journey of mending and perfecting." -Hlovate-

"Have they not observed things that Allâh has created, 

(how) their shadows incline to the right and to the left, 

making prostration unto Allâh, 

and they are lowly?"

[16:48]

A shadow is an area where direct light from a light source cannot reach due to obstruction by an object.

nota kaki:

• hari ni secara tak sengaja telah buat letupan kat dalam Patho Lab sementara tunggu giliran untuk viva voce.. nasib baik tak kena kejutan elektrik..
• jawab exam tapi lepas tu bagitau roll no. orang lain..T_T ntah ape yang aku fikir..

those new year 'present'

people change...
for good, for the best, insyaAllah..
and i am glad for that..

change, even if it is so hard...
you haven't use your secret weapon yet : prayers..

and when He take something away from you,
just remember all those things that you asked from Him.
that might be something that you have asked before.
but you have forgotten about it.

oh, new year 'present',
you strike me when i barely open my eyes,
but that surely wakes my soul,
to know that everything comes from Him.

O Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful,
Have mercy on me...
make me strong in stormy day, in darkness of the night..
make strong ya Allah...

dear Heart,
don't stray too far, or else we will have hard time to find way back home.

nota kaki:

• be the change that you wish to see, be the person you wish to be.. -quoted-
• this article worth reading..[on filling the inner hole and coming home]
• i pray that someday i will meet those people who have change for Him, those who have decided and did change for better..

have a white new year

as far things that i could remember, penduduk Mekah berhijrah ke Madinah sehelai sepinggang..
without anything, nothing at all..

the only thing and the most precious thing that they brought with them in their heart, 
KEIMANAN KEPADA ALLAH

we always say that change can't be too drastic..
am i right?
because i'm with the people who strongly believed that..
sometimes, i just too scared that if i tried so hard, i'm afraid that i'm not strong enough..

tapi cuba bayangkan perasaan, kaum Muhajirin..
meninggalkan semua kecintaan hati, kecintaan dunia di Mekah..
to leave the place where the have been there since forever..
family, property, love, the land of ancestor etc...
agak-agak kalau semuanya nak simpan semua harta dunia, semua sentimental value tu, boleh tak nak berhijrah ke Madinah?

its like ripping your heart and all the memories apart...

sakit..
sakit sangat..

tapi mereka yakin janji Tuhan..










i can't write anymore..='(





Hijrah...too beautiful~
not merely moving from one place to another..
it's more than that..
fahamlah dengan hati, bukan memberitahu akal semata..

i am envy with them..

Say Bismillah, In the name God,
As the priest does with knife when he offers an animal.
Bismillah your old self
to find your real name.
    -Rumi

nota kaki:

• wahai merpati dan lelabah, kau menjadi saksi Hijrah Rasulullah.. you had got the chance to meet him, to protect him.. and i'm here, never meet him, i just have the love in me.. ='(

yet Your mercy remains

too beautiful..
in fact it just sooo true that it hit straight to the heart..

It is as if like my heart is surrounded by a hard shell 

One that seems unbreakable 

 It hardens more as time goes by 

 While spreading through my body 

 And soul I seek out comfort in others 

 But I am disappointed every time 

 Everyone hears but no one listens 

 No one understands 

 And no one sees 

 Not you 

 Or you 

 Or you 

 But You know what it is that hurts 

 And how this loneliness on this Earth is a burden 

 I have let You down over and over again 

 Yet Your mercy remains 

 I have ran away from You over and over again 

 Only to come back and find that You haven’t left 

 And Your mercy remains 

 I’m not worthy of Your blessings 

 I don’t thank You enough 

 Nor do I praise You as much You deserve to be praised 

 Yet Your mercy remains 

I have wronged myself 

I create mountains of sins 

I run around in circles 

Seeking comfort elsewhere 

And Your mercy remains 

I lay my head to sleep at night 

Becoming lifeless 

When the sun rises 

You allow me to come back 

And while I get up to face a new day 

I don’t express my gratefulness 

Simply by saying the word “Alhamdulillah” 

Yet Your mercy remains 

When will I learn? 

When will I truly wake up? 

When will I realize that I am passing through this world as a stranger? 

That this isn’t my abode to eternally live in 

That this world is a prison for a believer 

And paradise for another 

What will it take? 

Rid this darkness from my soul that I have brought upon myself 

Crack the walls that I have created around my heart 

Allow Your light to illuminate through 

You have listened 

And answered 

You have blessed me day after day with more time to 

Change 

Repent 

Forgive 

And prepare 

You have shielded me continuously 

And I am not as grateful as much as I should be 

And I do not praise You as much as You deserve to be 

Yet Your mercy remains. 

  taken from [here]

what do you really want?

Sometimes, things just don’t go the way you want it to be.

Leaving you wonder much, what you have done wrong.

Get it over as soon as you can.

Or you will end up wallow in self pity.

That ain’t good..

Sometimes, we think that grass always greener on the other side.

Kinda optimistic, huh?

What’s wrong with the red, blue or yellow grass if you can make the best out of it?

It is always about you.

How you perceive things that evolved around you.

Sometimes, we are not looking at clear blue sky.

There is time when sun shines so bright.

But at another moment, it had too much so tears start falling down.

you said you want rain but when it does, you hold your umbrella out.

You wish it too be bright and warm but then you are looking for shades.

You said you are grateful of what you have in your life.

Really?

bola aku minat, sembahyang aku tak minat...

tapi aku tak boleh hidup sorang macam ni...

.....memang tak boleh, selagi kau tak bergantung pada yang tak mati.

Allah Ya Hayyul Qayyum..

~Yang Hidup dan selalu jaga..


baru terjumpa snapshot ni kat tumblr..
the exact same scene that i quoted above..

reminiscence...

1 Putih 2002..
those were the times where they seniors looked at us like,
"why on earth you guys are choosing nasyeed about love?"

"errr, but its nasyeed about Allah's love. not merely cheap human love."

but those were only the unspoken conversation..

Tuhan pada-Mu ada kedamaian

Diribaan-Mu kebahagiaan

Tiada lagi rasa kesangsian di hati

Cinta Mu cinta tulus suci murni

Kasih-Mu nan abadi

tunjukkan sisi indah dirimu sahaja

jadi manusia ni leceh kan?
haha~
ok, ayat mungkin macam tak sesuai kot..

maksud aku, sebagai manusia kita ni terlampau kisah tentang pandangan orang lain terhadap kita..
to satisfy others, we tend to be like the one that we think they want to see..
we claimed that we are original which mean there is no one exactly like me or you..
but the thing is, deep inside we still care about their opinion..
i'm not saying thats totally a bad thing..
too much ain't do you any good..
perhaps, feels like trapped inside another body?

and still, as a human who live with other humans we ought to listen what others think about us..
what's their opinion and on what foundation they choose to think like that..
learn to put yourself in others shoes and see what its look like to stand there..
that would lead to better understanding, better relations, better world.. =)

to say that you don't need anyone to stand strong is a *no no no*
that doesn't means that you are weak and being dependent..
i suggest this word: Interdependent
i need you, you need me, we complete each other?
haha~ sounds too cheesy.. =p

but a helping hand would cheers both party, anyway..

ok, i'm rambling too much, ain't i?
actually, i wanted to tell you that how i'm being so childish and a bit emo i would say?
last sunday, i was supposed to went out for dinner with my friends from Davangere..
i was quite excited about it..
i ironed my shirt, pick my shawl and tried to look nice..
(put much efforts actually since i rarely ironed my shirt and wearing shawl.. i put so make up too so that i won't look pale and i did HT styled shawl.. haha~ )

anyway, a split second after that suddenly i didn't feel like going..
felt like my shawl too messy and people would laugh at me who trying hard to be different..
i thought my shirt looked so big and i looked fat.. o_O
(actually that just me imagination though~)




i didn't go that night..






when people asked me why i didn't go..
i simply said, "biasalah, perempuan kan emo..." with a smile on my face..
they looked at me thinking i'm joking..
me=emo???
hey, i can be emo too, sometimes.. maybe only for a short duration of time..

what i wanted to emphasised here is that people always show the good parts of themself..
atau dalam bahasa melayu, mahu menunjukkan sisi indah sahaja pada diri mereka kepada orang lain..
i know words can be sooo nasty and hurtful..
but wasn't people around us supposed to accept who we are, both good and bad things about us?




since i rarely update my blog nowadays, here's a sneak peek of my third Aidiladha in India..
(sekali, esok tulis 3 entry baru sekali gus.. haha~)

i still remember, it was foggy that morning..











preparing for Solat Sunat Aidiladha..
(first time gathered together like this with a guy as imam)

solat berjemaah..
a bliss~
selalunya solat dekat bilik pastu bersiap pergi kelas on Aidiladha..






nota kaki:

• makin hari terasa makin susah nak update belog.. bukan tanak, tapi menulis separuh jalan pun dah membuatkan perasaan jadi sangat dragging inside.. jadi, nak menulis pun tak seronok.. ni pun dah hampir-hampir nak berhenti menulis dan simpan sampai berkulat kat dalam draft je..

A single grain of rice can tip the scale. One man may be the difference between victory and defeat.

i am always in love with quotes and Mulan..

so i'm gonna share few lines from Mulan which i found very meaningful and sweet..=)

Emperor: The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all.

Shang: Sir?

Emperor: You don't meet a girl like that every dynasty!

you are precious lady, the one and only..

Grandmother Fa: [to Fa Li] Great, she brings home a sword. If you ask me, she should have brought home a ma-

Shang: Excuse me, does Fa Mulan live here? [Fa Li and Grandmother Fa point to the garden] Thank you.

Grandmother Fa: [to Fa Li] Woo! Sign me up for the next war!

her grandmother is so funny!

Mulan: [to Shang] Would you like to stay for dinner?

Grandmother Fa: Would you like to stay forever?

sweet la nenek!
would you like to grow old with me? *wink*

i love that old emperor too.. wise man with all good words..
macam atuk..=)

I've heard a great deal about you, Fa Mulan. You stole your father's armor, ran away from home. Impersonated a soldier. Deceived your commanding officer! Dishonored the Chinese army! Destroyed my palace! And!... You have saved us all.

[After Mulan turns down the offer to be on his council] Then, take this. [Hands Mulan his personal crest] So that your family will know what you have done for me. And... this [Hands Mulan the sword of Shan-Yu] So that the world will know what you have done for China.

Mushu and the cricket never failed to make me laugh..=D
always try their best to help Mulan but in the end they just make the situation worse..

Mushu: Hi.

Mulan: I should never have left home.

Mushu: Hey, c'mon you did it to save your father's life. Who knew you'd end up shaming him and disgracing your ancestors and losing all your friends...

Mushu!!! T_T

hmmm, i don't know whether you understand what i'm talking about..
i guess you would if you watched Mulan repeatedly..=p

once upon a time in mumbai - last part (1)

as i promised before, i'm gonna write about my last day during mumbai trip in April..
some of it i might not remember since it happened long before..
you can read the other part here: [part 1]   [part2]
so here's the story.........

i woke up for Subuh prayer..
After that, i woke amy's up and straight away continue my sleep...
i remember Hadi said that we're going to buy bus tickets in the morning but he didn't mention what time we're supposed to be ready..
and yeah, we didn't bought our bus tickets earlier as this is an "aci redah je punya trip".

suddenly, somebody knocked on our hotel room.
tak bukak pintu pun sebab tengah mengantuk sangat.
pastu Hadi telefon tanya dah bersiap ke?
rupanya hadi yang ketuk pintu..  =__="

aku terkejut dan kelam kabut..
kejut amy tapi dia buat tak tahu je pastu terus pegi mandi dan bersiap..
lepas tu hadi suruh aku dan amy pegi dengan hami dan naqi je sebab diorang pun tak siap lagi..

breakfast kat Theobroma (again!).
i just don't know why the guys really love that place..
the food was great! and pricey too..
well, you can't get cheap food in famous place in Mumbai..

we finished eating around 10 something, i guess..
since its kinda late and we're supposed to check out at 12pm so we decided to just walked around the hotel's area..
amy and I separated from the rest of the group (the guys) because initially we wanted to go back first to put the stuff that we bought from Theobroma..

~Colaba Causeway~

jalan, jalan, jalan...
ada orang cakap, "Apa Khabar?"
obviously with Indian slang and also Malaysian wouldn't greet each other like that..
at least as much as i've experienced..
i proposed a hypothesis to amy,


"kalau orang Malaysia dia mesti cakap macam ni; 'dari Malaysia ke'. orang tu memang bukan Malaysian."

then we stopped at one bookstore..
i got excited because i thought i saw my juniors.
(they said there were some juniors on mumbai trip also)
but it turned out that i got the wrong person..
MALU......
sebab muka teruja sangat dan rasa macam siap lambai tangan lagi kot.. haha~

tapi lepas tu masuk jugak kedai buku tu sebab Nadia pesan suruh cari buku baby shopaholic? shopaholic junior? ntahla, tak ingat tajuk pulak..
and here's where i proved my theory when somebody said:

"hmmm.... Orang Malaysia ke?"

yea, you got it right!
the bunch of people in the bookstore which i mistaken as my juniors are Malaysian.
and one of the guy greeted us. there were 4 or 5 of them at that time..
i couldn't remember much about others as they just smiled to us..
but i talked to that particular guy..
bak kata amy, aku bercakap macam jumpa kawan lama..
haha~
basically, the conversation was between me and him.. amy didn't talked much.. or because i dominated the whole conversation? uuuu, sorry amy~

he said he and his friend travel from hyderabad, worked there in some creative multimedia company(?) from US or UK which has branch in KL and hyderabad. this is his second time to India. first time only for 3 months for programme? training? kursus?
i said i'm from belgaum, medic student, travel by bus with a group of friends..
then the conversation change topics: travel by bus vs train. what is your opinion about india? how India has been treating you so far? bla bla bla...

lepas tu member dia dah nak blah dah dari bookstore tu..
(dah bosan kot sebab diorang tak bercakap pun dan bookstore tu kecik je..)
guna sign language je, agak-agak diorang cakap camni kot:

"bro, kiteorang gerak dulu. nanti kau catch-up la."

"alright, no problem~"

sambung cakap sekejap, pastu dia pun gerak..

at one moment i just realised one thing, "eh, siapa nama dia?"
hampir-hampir nak panggil balik nak tanya nama..
but i couldn't bring myself to do it..
somehow in the back of my mind, ada suara yang cakap, "tundukkan pandangan, dila!"

so, i have no other memories about him..
i don't even know what his name or age or where he came from, let alone his phone number or facebook..
yada yada yadaaa~

kalau tak boleh dapat free tour guide atau ada orang belanja makan kalau datang hyderabad..
miahaha~ *evil laugh*

anyway, i don't have strong memory about him..
muka dia pun aku tak ingat walaupun baru lepas 5 minit bercakap..
i might have been staring into blank space instead of making eye contact with him..
i have that capability..
so, if by chance i met him again, we'll be probably another 2 complete strangers again..
what i do remember is that he was wearing white t-shirt, khaki kargo pants, muka chinese look eh? ke bukan? not so tall.. and a malay guy..
teruk betul description..
he won't read this anyway..

jalan depan sikit, naik tangga sampailah hotel kiteorang

oh yeah, i bought reader digest and few postcards from that bookstore..
couldn't find nadia's book..
pastu beli kasut baru amy, tawar menawar kompas kot kat kedai kat kaki lima..
pastu balik hotel kemas-kemas barang..

boleh tak kalau aku dah penat cerita..
sambung nanti pulak la ye.....=p

nota kaki:

• gambar ambik dari google je..

ubat hati =)

nak lebih ingat apa itu ubat hati, boleh dengar lagu ni--> Tombo Ati-Opick

i noticed everything but i just don't say anything

i thought we are the two birds,
singing their hearts out without even care what others talked about,
i thought we are the two birds,
not afraid to soar high in the sky because we know we have each other.

one day comes another bird,
you said your soulmate has finally come,
i said it is fine and you don't have to worry,
after all that is how thing supposed to be.

time flies by and i thought we're still have each other,
sharing the same story and melody,
but then i realised that i'm stuck,
i got caught, trapped in the memories.

and then i sing our song,
wish that you would continue,
but in fact you've forgotten all about it,
you have different melody,
and i'm stuck in the same frequency.

sometimes i just wish that you care,
sometimes i just wish that you're not forgetting the promises,
sometimes i just wish that you haven't forgot about me,
but then i realised, it was never about me,
because now he is so much important to you.

i don't belong

makin hari makin tak reti berbahasa.. *sigh*

vita

The whispers told me,

 I'm just another passerby,

 The signs are everywhere,

 but many failed to survive.

~Vita (Contengan Jalanan - hlovate)

Did you know that the sentence that you can say without moving your lips is :

LA ILAHA ILLA ALLAH ??

and the wisdom behind that, is that when a person is Dying he can possibly lose the ability to move his lips , so Allah made it easy for him/her to say Shahada before his DEATH.”

So which of the favors of your Lord would you deny? [Quran 55:13]

hey stranger, would you care to talk to me?

sometimes, it's much easier to spill to a stranger,spares the stigma and the judgement.

life goes on

hidup ni, hidup kita
bukan hidup orang lain

kalau terasa tawar, 

pandai-pandailah memberi perisa..

kalau terasa kelam,

carilah cahaya..

kalau terasa kosong,

isilah dengan sebaik-baik perhiasan..

hidup ini kita yang rasa

maka kita juga yang tahu bagaimana coraknya

cantik kah?
indah kah?
bahagia kah?

semuanya terletak di hati..

kalau rasa kecewa mahupun sedih

bersyukurlah..

sekurang-kurangnya kita tidak ignorant,tidak heartless..

hidup ini, hidup yang kita pilih

benar..

segalanya tetap ketentuan Allah

namun, kita yang pilih bagaimana mahu berhadapan musibah
kita sendiri yang memandu arah 

taken from [here] mucho gracias~

Demi (buah) Tin dan (buah) Zaitun,

dan demi bukit Sinai,

dan demi kota (Mekah) ini yang aman,

Sesungguhnya Kami telah menciptakan manusia dalam bentuk yang sebaik-baiknya.

Kemudian Kami kembalikan dia ke tempat yang serendah-rendahnya (neraka),

kecuali orang-orang yang beriman dan mengerjakan amal saleh; maka bagi mereka pahala yang tiada putus-putusnya.

Maka apakah yang menyebabkan kamu mendustakan (hari) pembalasan sesudah (adanya keterangan-keterangan) itu?

Bukankah Allah Hakim yang seadil-adilnya? ~Surah At-Tin,95:1-8~

life is not that easy.

agreed.

        life need you to be strong.

agreed.

       life is getting better when you keep your faith.

very much agreed.

       Don’t turn your back to God, nothing in life is guaranteed.
       But if you keep your faith something gets clearer than other.    

and so..........

Life Goes On....

      No matter how sad that incident was.

             No matter how difficult that decision was. 

      No matter how painful that feeling was. 

             No matter how heart breaking that moment was. 

      No matter how though life is.  

             Life still has to go on..

we did it!

1Malaysia, 08 Oct 2011, Sankam Hotel

phewww~
Alhamdulillah, Malaysian Night 2011 was done!
no more worried about how will it turn out..
no more busy preparing and organising for it..
overall, it was awesome though a bit messy towards the end..
and Alhamdulillah we made it in time..

walaupun sedih tak sempat nak tangkap gambar, tak sempat nak tengok opening performance, tak sempat nak menikmati makanan, tak sempat pun nak beramah mesra, terkejar sana, terkejar sini, tapi kena utamakan tanggungjawab..
nanti siapa nak jawab pulak kan?

harapnya semua puas hati dan takde drama macam tahun lepas.
moga Allah redha~

so many things can't be described in words,

for words just merely collection of letters in mind.

yet deep inside the heart,

there's so many feelings awaits.

memang sempoi!

Alhamdulillah, after keeps on whining endlessly for holiday retreat, You gave me something i really need.
S.E.M.P.O.I.

walaupun perjalanan tidaklah sesempoi mana, tapi terasa part of me dah sampai Malaysia.
maaf, tak terasa nak menulis panjang-panjang..

hee~ comel

sebelum pergi kelas tadi, sms dengan mak sebab tanak kacau dia tengah mengajar.
pastu dia nak pergi ambik adik balik sekolah pulak.

i said to her that i'll call her later whenever i'm free.

reply:

Teke

i dont know how u read that but i read it like 'tey-key'..
somehow, i know she meant take care. =)

when i got back from the class, there's one message from my mom.

"take care sebenarnya. mak tengah driving tadi, suruh Ee yang reply."

i guess the situation might be like this more or less,

mak received sms from me--> told Ee to read the sms because she was driving---> told Ee to reply "take care"--> so my lil' brother type it as "Teke" (maybe he thought that is some kind of new words/ language that adult used)

A kid didn’t find anyone to be his Imam in Jamaa prayer to pray behind him , so he used his toys to be their Imam. 

 MashaAllah, so cute!!!

imagine a world without muslim

a great article that i took from here [click this link] 

Yes, lets imagine a world WITHOUT MUSLIMS, shall we?

Without Muslims you wouldn’t have:

• Coffee
• Cameras
  
• Experimental Physics
  
• Chess
  
• Soap
  
• Shampoo
  
• Perfume/spirits
  
• Irrigation
  
• Crank-shaft, internal combustion engine, valves, pistons
  
• Combination locks
  
• Architectural innovation (pointed arch -European Gothic cathedrals adopted this technique as it made the building much stronger, rose windows, dome buildings, round towers, etc.)
  
• Surgical instruments
  
• Anesthesia
  
• Windmill
  
• Treatment of Cowpox
  
• Fountain pen
  
• Numbering system
  
• Algebra/Trigonometry
  
• Modern Cryptology
  
• 3 course meal (soup, meat/fish, fruit/nuts)
  
• Crystal glasses
  
• Carpets
  
• Checks
  
• Gardens used for beauty and meditation instead of for herbs and kitchen.
  
• University
• Optics
• Music
• Toothbrush
• Hospitals
• Bathing
• Quilting
• Mariner’s Compass
• Soft drinks
• Pendulum
• Braille
• Cosmetics
• Plastic surgery
• Calligraphy
• Manufacturing of paper and cloth

It was a Muslim who realized that light ENTERS our eyes, unlike the Greeks who thought we EMITTED rays, and so invented a camera from this discovery.

It was a Muslim who first tried to FLY in 852, even though it is the Wright Brothers who have taken the credit.

It was a Muslim by the name of Jabir ibn Hayyan who was known as the founder of modern Chemistry. He transformed alchemy into chemistry. He invented: distillation, purification, oxidation, evaporation, and filtration. He also discovered sulfuric and nitric acid.

It is a Muslim, by the name of Al-Jazari who is known as the father of robotics.

It was a Muslim who was the architect for Henry V’s castle.

It was a Muslim who invented hollow needles to suck cataracts from eyes, a technique still used today.

It was a Muslim who actually discovered inoculation, not Jenner and Pasteur to treat cowpox. The West just brought it over from Turkey.

It was Muslims who contributed much to mathematics like Algebra and Trigonometry, which was imported over to Europe 300 years later to Fibonnaci and the rest.

It was Muslims who discovered that the Earth was round 500 years before Galileo did.

The list goes on………..

Just imagine a world without Muslims. Now I think you probably meant, JUST IMAGINE A WORLD WITHOUT TERRORISTS. And then I would agree, the world would definitely be a better place without those pieces of filth. But to hold a whole group responsible for the actions of a few is ignorant and racist. No one would ever expect Christians or White people to be held responsible for the acts of Timothy McVeigh (Oklahoma bombing) or Andreas Brevik (Norway killing), or the gun man that shot Congresswoman Giffords in head, wounded 12 and killed 6 people, and rightly so because they had nothing to do with those incidents! Just like the rest of the 1.5 billion Muslims have nothing to do with this incident!

Sources:

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/science/how-islamic-inventors-changed-the-world-469452.html

http://articles.cnn.com/2010-01-29/world/muslim.inventions_1_hassani-inventions-muslim?_s=PM:WORLD

http://www.ummahedinburgh.co.uk/radio/files/Muslim-Invention-Article.pdf

good girl prays to Allah

 be a rose with thorns.
     for it not decreases your value.
         in fact,  it will enhanced your beauty even more.

button-badge that EG gave to Ju'a

wondering aimlessly in the net, i came across this button-badge.

remind me of the same thing EG gave to Ju'a when he transfered to another college.

~ shubert serenade by hlovate ~

"..good girl prays to Allah.."

deep meaning. really makes me think about it.

Jibril a.s. berkata kepada Rasulullah s.a.w;
“Ya Muhammad, tahukah engkau kenapa singkat umur umatmu?”
Tanpa menunggu jawapan, Jibril a.s sendiri menjawab pertanyaan itu.
“Sebabnya supaya mereka tidak berpanjangan melakukan maksiat.”

nota kaki:

1. How to Save a Life keeps on playing in my mind like a broken radio.
2. watch this video. really awesome.

hijab of a faithful servant

hijab of a faithful servant,

serve the purpose of covering the aurah perfectly..

hijab of a faithful servant,

wasn't only cover the body but a symbol of modesty..

hijab is not a fashion statement but it's a religious statement..
{inspiring}

maybe she is not the perfect person to speak about this,
but i think if these words are really from the heart, it is really inspiring..

dear muslimah, keep your standards high and your gaze low.. 

yang terang itu cahaya.
cukup-cukup lah hidup bergelap.

semakin menjelang penghujung Ramadhan, hati rasa tak tenang..
easily offended, was so fragile, short-tempered(?), lazy, bla bla bla...

sedih kena tinggal beraya kat Belgaum ke?
mungkinkah sebenarnya tak cukup lagi tarbiyah sebulan di madrasah Ramadhan?
ignorant and arrogant me, never grabbed all the oppurtunities given yet i put the blame on other things..
exam perhaps?

susahnya kalau sikit-sikit nak jadi emo..
semua serba tak kena..
feels like i need a vacation..
yada.. yada.. yada...

Ramadhan dah nak habis...
i'm so sad...='(

 oh, Ramadhan.....
can we have a date again next year?
"Allahumma balighna fi shahri Ramadhan....."

heart ached

it's the thought that counts

pagi-pagi sebelum pergi kelas nampak satu sampul surat yang ada nama aku..

waaaa~ it was a surprise for me because i didn't expect any cards or letters or whatever..

kat belakang sampul tu dah tulis kad+keychain kat custom declaration form..
tapi yang sedihnya, kat dalam tu takde keychain sebab sampul dah terkoyak sikit..
jadi aku suspek yang keychain tu mesti dah terjatuh kat mana-mana..

*sad*

dah la keychain tu beli kat korea.. ='(

benarlah rezeki tu milik Allah..
Dia akan beri rezeki dan nikmat kepada sesiapa sahaja yang dikehendakinya..
tapi cuba tengok berapa banyak nikmat yang Allah dah bagi tanpa sempat pun kita meminta..
adakah setiap hari kita berdoa supaya diberikan oksigen untuk bernafas?
adakah setiap hari kita minta keizinan Allah untuk menggunakan kaki untuk berjalan, mata untuk melihat, telinga untuk mendengar, mulut untuk bercakap?


she has done part, sending me the card and keychain..
it just that, it was not meant for me..

anyway, it is the thought that counts..=)

tapi dapat hadiah memang seronok!!!

nota kaki:
tunggu kad raya dari intan la pulak.. *wink2*

pelik tapi benar

somehow, i feel its kinda weird seeing my Muslim friend posted status about Islam, about Allah in facebook and then one of the person who like that status is a non Muslim..

but deep inside, i am happy, i am glad and i am so grateful..

Alhamdulillah, kalau dia sudah melihat indahnya Islam itu..

semoga Allah berikan hidayah..


status fb tersebut berbunyi begini,

berilah hatimu untuk Allah,pasti Allah temukan padamu pemilik terbaik :)

nota kaki:
yang peliknya bukan status tu tapi siapa yang meng'like' status tu..

o la di da~

blog list dah hilang semua rupanya..
haish~ cemana ntah boleh jadi camtu..
patutlah link tak keluar pun.. ingatkan tak habis loading....

will fix it soon....
(bila terasa rajin..=p)

kuih muih

maaflah tengah-tengah malam ni meng-update blog dengan benda yang entah ape-ape je..
tapi nak jugak kongsi sebab tanak la gelak sorang-sorang..
nanti orang cakap tak betul pulak..

so, this is it.. the things that make me laughed.. =D

Jenis-jenis kuih mengikut kategori, sempena bulan puasa & hari raya yg akan datang..

Kuih paling gangster = Lompat Tikam
Kuih paling sexy = Puteri Mandi
Kuih paling jijik = Taik Itik
Kuih bajet comey = Cek Mek Molek
Kuih untuk awet muda = Seri Muka
Kuih paling alim = Kuih Ketayap
Kuih penyakit lelaki kronik= Batang Buruk
Kuih suka pukul = Kuih Lompang
Kuih dalam zoo = Badak Berendam
Kuih untuk Polis Trafik = Kuih Sampreeeeettttt
Kuih yg bangun sendiri = Kuih Bangkit
Kuih org x mandi = Kuih Bau-lu
Kuih paling tenteram = Kuih Makmur
Kuih paling lembap = Kuih Siput

sekian terima kasih...

nota kaki:
hari ni dengan jayanya membuat kuih puteri ayu (walaupun macam bentat sikit)..
tetiba rasa terharu sambil tersipu-sipu malu.. haha~
kat mesia, pandang pun tak kot kuih ni..
mak memang tak pernah buat pun kat rumah..

gambar kabur dari kamera henfon yang paling cikai..

gigih membeli sebiji kelapa..
balik hostel semangat nak kupas(?) macam mak selalu buat dengan parang..
tapi tak jadi, jenuh nak bagi tempurung tu tecabut..
last sekali hentak atas lantai bagi pecah..
the rest is history.. (malas nak cerita)

alhamdulillah, dah selamat dibawa ke iftar hari ni..=)

Seorang gadis itu …
yang hidup di alaf ini, gadis akhir zaman, era hidup perlu berdikari … 

dirinya terancam dek fitnah, sucinya perlu tabah, cintanya tak boleh berubah, tak bisa terpadam dek helah, dek keliru fikir jiwanya, kerna dihambur ucapkata nista, hanya kerana dunia memperdaya …

kerna seorang gadis itu, yang hidup di zaman ini …
perlu teguh kakinya, mantap iman mengunci jiwanya, dari lemah dan kalah, dalam pertarungan yang lama … dari rebah dan salah, dalam perjalanan mengenali Tuhannya, dalam perjuangan menggapai cinta, ni’mat hakiki seorang hamba, dari Tuhan yang menciptakan, dari Tuhan yang mengurniakan, seorang gadis itu …
anugerah istimewa kepada dunia!

taken from someone's tumblr but the source is from iluvislam.com..

ramadhan fasa kedua

alhamdulillah, semalam last theory paper for 2nd Internal Exam..
well, not exactly last because i still have one more paper (Preventive and Social Medicine a.k.a. Community Medicine) on Tuesday before proceed for practical exams..
i shall not commented much on the exams, it really ain't that good but now i only have to doa and tawakal..
kalau tak dapat dunia, tak kan nak hilang akhirat jugak kan?

macam orang Melayu cakap,
"yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran."

gambar comel.. taken from [here]

hari ni dah hari ke-12 berpuasa di bumi Belgaum ni..
dah masuk fasa kedua Ramadhan pun..
cepat sangat masa berlalu..

walaupun sebenarnya macam banyak je kekurangan puasa kat tempat orang ni, but somehow i feel that it is actually a blessing..

perhaps, a blessing in disguise~

alhamdulillah,
walaupun tak boleh nak makan makanan spesial bulan puasa, tapi tak perlu nak lawan nafsu bila pergi bazar Ramadhan..semua benda nak dimakan, sampaikan solat pun rasa macam nak pengsan sebab perut penuh sangat..

alhamdulillah,
tak kisah sangat pun nak berbuka makan apa, asalkan ada makanan dah cukup bersyukur..
be it megi, biskut, kuih, roti or whatever, sangat grateful ada makanan berbuka..
dulu kalau kat malaysia, berbuka dengan lauk biasa-biasa je mesti rasa macam sedih..
padahal sedap je makanan tu, ada jugak lauk nak berbuka puasa..

alhamdulillah,
dah tak kisah sangat pasal raya..
sebabnya raya pun cuti sehari je, tak balik Malaysia pun..
excited nak solat raya dan masak ramai-ramai, kumpul ramai-ramai..
tak kisah pun ade baju raya ke tak,biskut raya cukup ke tak, rumah kena cat baru ke tak..
semua tu dah tolak ketepi..
ada baju raya sepasang pun dah seronok giler, apatah lagi kalau mak buat sampai 4 pasang, last-last bawak 2 pasang je sebab beg tak muat dan lagipun mana pakai sangat baju kurung kat sini..
dulu kalau ada sepasang je baju raya, sedih kot.. nanti kena selang seli dengan baju kurung lama.. huaaaa~
kat sini, kalau kena pakai baju lama pun tak kesah..=)

and many other things that can't be describe in words..



oh ye, tahun ni seronok sebab kiteorang buat solat jemaah isyak dan terawih..
ada tazkirah jugak...
alhamdulillah~

sekurang-kurangnya jiwa terasa terisi, ukhwah pun makin rapat..
syukur ya Allah~

tak kisahlah, bumi mana pun kita tinggal, tetap juga kita dalam pengawasan Allah..
berdoalah saat hatimu terasa pedih, berdoalah tatkala kegembiraan hadir..
berdoalah, berdoalah, berdoalah..

sedangkan Iblis, bila dia meminta kepada Allah untuk ditangguhkan balasan bagi dia sampai hari akhirat, Allah makbulkan..
takkan kita, manusia ni nak sombong pulak..
kalau berdoa dengan sungguh-sungguh, Allah akan dengar.. insyaAllah~

first ramadhan

"Puasa ni, bukan hanya tahan lapar dahaga di perut saja, Dila. Puasa itu untuk bersihkan roh."

same dialogue that Pak Tono said to Fend. (contengan jalanan)
of course without mentioning Dila. =)

selamat berpuasa

Allah uji kita pada titik lemah.

true indeed.

kalau diserang pada kekuatan, how can we know that we're not that strong?

orang Islam tu, kuat sebab dia Islam. Islam itu pulak agama yang perfect.

so, to be all-rounded person, He tests you in all different angles.

kesusahan itu ujian. kesusahan itu juga nikmat.

kesenangan dilihat sebagai nikmat padahal boleh jadi itu satu ujian.


nota kaki:
sesiapa yang mungkin ada peluang nak baca Contengan Jalanan - Hlovate, silalah baca.. mungkin ada sesuatu yang boleh dapat.. Hati tu Allah yang pegang, jadi lain orang lain la kesannya.. personally, I think it is a great thing to ignite Ramadhan spirit.

Happy Ramadhan Mubarak!

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kalau takde Allah tempat bergantung harap, agaknya mesti dah jadi orang hilang pedoman.

pic courtesy of tumblr

bukankah itu yang kita minta?

selepas selamanya

siapa dah tengok Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa mesti pernah dengar lagu ni..
tak payah tengok pun, mesti pernah terdengar kan?

sebab takde kekasih hati lagi nak didedikasikan lagu ni, aku nak bagi parents aku dengar..
one and only reason : itu lah chenta hati aku..hihi~
source of strength when everything is out of place, becomes haywire..

Setiap nafas yang dihembus
Setiap degupan jantung
Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Dalam sedar dibuai angan
Dalam tidur dan khayalan
Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Ternyata ku perlukan cinta dari dirimu sayang
Barulah terasa ku bernyawa

tak payah cakap ape pun, aku tahu diorang sentiasa ada untuk aku.
sentiasa ada untuk dengar aku merepek, ada untuk dengar aku mengadu, ada untuk bagi nasihat, bagi aku kekuatan..
yang paling penting, ada untuk doakan aku kat sini..

Kasihku ku amat mencintai kamu
Kerana kau beri erti hidup
Ku kan terus mencinta sedetik lebih selepas selamanya

but when things just to much dan empangan air mata rasa macam pecah, aku jarang telefon rumah..
nanti habis kredit je buat drama air mata segala..
bukan nak kontol macho, cuma tanak diorang risau sangat pasal aku kat sini..

Di kala penuh ketakutan dengan badai kehidupan
Ku bersyukur adanya kamu

tahun ni, raya ke-3 di India..
harapnya masih kekal hensem dan bergaya di pagi raya seperti raya sebelumnya.
no more tears~

Biarlah kehilangan semua yang dimiliki di dunia
Asal masih adanya kamu

mak ayah, sila jaga kesihatan anda.
saya jauh, saya tak mampu buat apa-apa selain doa.
dan kalau terjadi sesuatu yang tak diingini, saya tak rasa saya mampu untuk semua itu.
till then, love will always be there.
may Allah bless~

janganlah sedih

pernah tak satu hari rasa sangat sedih?
kecik hati.. patah hati.. sunyi.. sakit hati..
macam down sangat kan?

tapi pernah tak fikir, siapa yang buat kita rasa macam tu?
Allah yang izinkan.
ya, Allah yang buat kita jadi sedih..

cuba fikir lagi, dalam banyak-banyak benda tak best yang jadi kat kita, berapa kali kita rasa sedih?
sesungguhnya Allah yang pegang hati kita.
bila kita terasa hati dengan kawan ke, itu Allah yang izinkan hati kita untuk bersedih.
bukan atas kuasa kawan kita tu.
cakaplah apa-apa pun, caci maki, umpat keji, sumpah seranah..
kalau Allah tak izinkan hati kita ni terasa, kita takkan rasa satu apa pun..

and thus, whenever you are feeling so blue, just remember that it happens under His will..
biarlah Dia yang jaga hati kita..
kalau manusia yang jaga, bila dia cuai je, hati kita pun jatuh bersepai..

few things that we ought to be grateful is that during the moment when we are feeling so bad, so sad, we have Allah to turn to..
kalau takde kan sedih kot..
nanti mulalah rasa nak emo-emo pasal benda kecik pun..
Allah kan ada.. Keluarga kita pun ada.. Sahabat pun ada..
semua sayang kat kita.
janganlah sedih, ok?

kita kan kuat! sebab kita ada Tuhan yang Maha Hebat..

ahlan wasahlan ya ramadhan

ya Allah, sampaikan kami kepada bulan Ramadhan...

random

Rasa dalam hati dah macam sirap bandung tabur milo pastu perah limau, bercampur baur je rasa..
Ni mesti dah sampai state homesick lepas balik dari Malaysia.
Kali ni delayed sikit sebab minggu lepas tak sempat nak melayan perasaan sebab penat balik tu tak hilang lagi dengan segala kerja (siapkan case sheet) tak siap pastu kena marahlah.

Aku masih hutang lagi cerita mumbai-part 3(last).
But i guess it doesn’t matter that much as nobody would bother to read.

Aku tak balik raya.
Tak tahu la nak raya kat mana tahun ni.
Semua orang pakat balik raya kat Malaysia.
Kenapa aku tak balik?
Ntahlah.....
Mungkin sebab akan guna duit banyak beli tiket, kena ponteng kelas dah la kedatangan pun rasanya takde la bagus sangat.
Atau mungkin ada sebab lain..
*sigh*
Agak-agak kalau lama sangat tak balik raya, aku jadi tak reti beraya lagi ke?

Baby junior nak fly 13hb ni.. insyaAllah 14hb sampailah kat Belgaum.
Cuma ada budak-budak dentistry je kali ni, kiranya aku takde junior la..
Dan ini bermaksud dah genap 2 tahun aku kat India..
Hari ni 12hb kan? Hari aku fly 2 tahun lepas.

Oh ye, kat rumah aku ada anak kucing hitam.
Kawan mak bagi kat adik bongsu aku (kot?)..
Lupe pulak nak tanya nama kucing tu..
Tengok la camne balik nanti, aku berani tak dengan kucing.. hehe~
Orang cakap aku gemuk duduk India..
Oh well, i think that’s the fact!
Bukan sebab makanan India sedap sangat tapi sebab aku masak hebat sangat gaya MasterChef sampai sedap sangat makanan!
*terbatuk*
Haih, suka benar nak perasan..

Random kan aku?

I better off now.
Or else i’ll just rant everything endlessly here.