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atas sebab-sebab yang tak dapat dielakkan, blog ini akan mengalami perubahan..

mungkin lebih hodoh kot..

jadi sebarang kesulitan dan kecacatan amatlah dikesali..

harap maaf~

*sambung bertukang*

nota kaki: pening dan tapaham code2 ni semua..*pengsan*

engineer........

人类灵魂的工程师

this is a chinese proverb that i learned from ruth on the way to Anatomy Lecture Hall for Histology class..
i just love it..
it means Engineers of Human Soul

Engineers of the human soul (Russian: Инженеры человеческих душ) (Chinese: 人类灵魂的工程师) was a term applied to writers and other cultural workers by Joseph Stalin.

The phrase was originally coined by Yury Olesha and then used by Joseph Stalin, first during his meeting with the Soviet writers in preparation for the first Congress of theUnion of Soviet Writers:

The production of souls is more important than the production of tanks.... And therefore I raise my glass to you, writers, the engineers of the human soul. (Joseph Stalin, Speech at home of Maxim Gorky, 26 October 1932)

It was taken up by Andrei Zhdanov and developed into the idea of 'Socialist realism'

This term is used extensively in the People's Republic of China to refer to the teaching profession.

(courtesy of wikipedia..)


Russian said Engineers of human soul=writers..
Chinese said Engineers of human soul=teachers..
both equally right because those two professions help to nurture the human soul..
be a good mankind with humanity..

So,for engineers out there, be Engineers of human soul and not only Engineer for the sake of your profession..
I am thinking whether i could be an engineer too..
an Engineer of Human Soul..
or i just can be a Doctor of Human Soul..
ermm..it seems being an engineer is better because a doctor can only heals the broken soul while an engineer plays the important role in nurturing the soul..
*sigh*
but anyway, being a doctor is not half bad then..
or maybe it's more important because i could prevent the soul from dying..

"Maka kecelakaan besarlah bagi orang yang keras membatu hatinya daripada menerima peringatan yang diberi oleh Allah. Mereka yang demikian keadaannya adalah dalam kesesatan yang nyata." 

(Surah al-Zumar,39:22)

Tanda-tanda hati mati

Menurut Syeikh Ibrahim Adham, antara sebab atau tanda-tanda hati mati ialah:

1. Mengaku kenal Allah SWT, tetapi tidak menunaikan hak-hak-Nya.

2. Mengaku cinta kepada Rasulullah s.a.w., tetapi mengabaikan sunnah baginda.

3. Membaca al-Quran, tetapi tidak beramal dengan hukum-hukum di dalamnya.

4. Memakan nikmat-nikmat Allah SWT, tetapi tidak mensyukuri atas pemberian-Nya.

5. Mengaku syaitan itu musuh, tetapi tidak berjuang menentangnya.

6. Mengaku adanya nikmat syurga, tetapi tidak beramal untuk mendapatkannya.

7. Mengaku adanya seksa neraka, tetapi tidak berusaha untuk menjauhinya.

8. Mengaku kematian pasti tiba bagi setiap jiwa, tetapi masih tidak bersedia untuknya.

9. Menyibukkan diri membuka keaiban orang lain, tetapi lupa akan keaiban diri sendiri.

10. Menghantar dan menguburkan jenazah/mayat saudara se-Islam, tetapi tidak mengambil pengajaran daripadanya. 

nota kaki:

1. makin lama aku tengok ejaan engineer, makin aku rasa pelik..terasa macam salah eja pulak..*juling+confius*
2. being a doctor cum engineer, tak pelik ke? because those two seems to be totally differ from each other.. erm, Sahara desert and North Pole? *hiperbola*
3. so, despite being an engineer, i could be a teacher or a writer so that i'm also an engineer..=D *dreaming*
4. doctor engineer OR engineer doctor? *pening*
5. *laughing* masa tengah google tadi terjumpa poll pasal "Would you rather marry a doctor or engineer?"

ulangtahun mereka..

Allah selamatkan kamu..

     Allah selamatkan kamu..

Allah selamatkan sahabatku..

      Allah selamatkan kamu..

Selamat Ulangtahun duhai sahabat..

In the end, it's not going to matter how many breaths you took, but how many moments took your breath away 

- shing xiong

Sometimes all you can give is love
Sometimes all you have is not enough

Sometimes life is like a dream

Sometimes dreams aren’t what they seem

Sometimes laughter can heal your heart

Sometimes it’s laughter that breaks it apart

Sometimes the world goes faster than you can go

Sometimes even fast is still too slow

Sometimes going home is the only thing on your mind

Sometimes home is the only place you can’t find

Sometimes you are too tired to sleep

Sometimes you are too sad to weep

Sometimes freedom holds you back

Sometimes a wedding dress is black

Sometimes loneliness is what you need

Sometimes there’s a harvest without a seed

Sometimes darkness can be too bright

Sometimes rain gives you delight

Sometimes you think you understand

Sometimes you know you really can’t

Sometimes what sets you free are restrictions

Sometimes what makes most sense are contradictions 

but that only last for sometimes..

what really happened is that we always have Allah to guide us, all the times..

bring us the light through the darkness..

show us the sign so that we won't be lost..

cumanya kita kena ingat matlamat hidup kita..(reminder for me also)

sebelum dilahirkan lagi, kita dah berjanji kepada Allah:

Dan (ingatlah wahai Muhammad) ketika Tuhanmu mengeluarkan zuriat anak-anak Adam (turun-temurun) dari (tulang) belakang mereka, dan Ia jadikan mereka saksi terhadap diri mereka sendiri, (sambil Ia bertanya dengan firmanNya): “Bukankah Aku tuhan kamu?” Mereka semua menjawab: “Benar (Engkaulah Tuhan kami), kami menjadi saksi”. Yang demikian supaya kamu tidak berkata pada hari kiamat kelak: “Sesungguhnya kami adalah lalai (tidak diberi peringatan) tentang (hakikat tauhid) ini”. (Surah Al A'raf,7:172)

wahai sahabat, jaga diri elok-elok k..
kita jaga diri masing-masing dan saling mengingatkan antara satu sama lain..
moga lahir kita sebagai seorang Islam, hidup sebagai seorang Islam dan InsyaAllah mati juga masih dalam keadaan seorang Islam, masih beriman kepada DIA yang Maha Esa.. 

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buat cik Nor Atikah Rosdi yang ulangtahunnya jatuh pada 27 Mac..
it's have been almost 3 years kan since we first enrolled in KTT and being in the same class..
memorable ALU13..
it's a pleasure to know you inche Atikus..
later kita gi meroyan naik ketapi lagi eh..
pegi langkawi eh?? =D
nak gi sarawak kena tunggu saya balik dulu la..

..cik atikah rosdi..

All the best in your future undertakings (BDS in India)..
treasure every moment in you life, in India..
hopefully India will make us a better person, the one with more patience..
"Being on top of the world doesn't mean anything unless you know what it's like to be at the bottom."

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pada 28 Mac pula, seorang gadis bernama Nur Farah Liyana telah dilahirkan..


HAPPY BIRTHDAY, dear!!!

liyana and her family except lina..

i don't really know how exactly we become friends..
but somehow, i know it's what Allah has planned for us..
so-called virtual friend because we only met in cyber world..
but she really exist lah, not virtual one because i met her last year..=)


Good Luck and all the best in your life..
may the future ahead will make you smile throughout your life..

someday everything will all make perfect sense. so for now, laugh at confusion, smile through the tears, and keep reminding yourself that
everything happens for a reason. 

kerana aturan Allah itu indah~


here's a song to share...
fall in love when i heard it in my cousin's blog..
but i haven't watch that anime yet..

Original / Romaji Lyrics	English Translation
Totemo ureshikatta yo / kimi ga warai kaketeta Subete o tokasu hohoemi de	I was so happy, you were laughing With a smile that melts everything away
Haru wa mada tookute / tsumetai tsuchi no naka de Mebuku toki o matte ita 'n da	Spring is still far away, inside the cold earth, Waiting for the time to sprout
Tatoeba kurushii kyou da to shite mo Kinou no kizu o nokoshite ite mo Shinjitai / kokoro hodo ite yukeru to	For instance, even if today is painful And yesterday's wounds remain I want to believe that I can free my heart and go on
Umare kawaru koto wa dekinai yo Dakedo kawatte wa ikeru kara LET'S STAY TOGETHER / itsu mo	I cannot be reborn But I can change as I go on, so Let's stay together always
Boku dake ni waratte / sono yubi de / nee sawatte Nozomi bakari ga hateshinaku	Smile only at me and touch me with those fingers This simple desire is everlasting
Yasashiku shitai yo / mou kuyamanu you ni Nageki no umi mo koete ikou	I want things to be simple Let's finally get across this sea of mournful sorrow
Tatoeba kurushii kyou da to shite mo Itsu ka atatakana omoide ni naru Kokoro goto subete nage daseta nara	For instance, even if today is painful Someday it will become a warm memory If you leave everything up to your heart
Koko ni ikiteru imi ga wakaru yo Umare ochita yorokobi o shiru LET'S STAY TOGETHER / itsu mo	I understand the meaning our living here It is to know the joy of having been born Let's stay together always
Tatoeba kurushii kyou da to shite mo Itsu ka atatakana omoide ni naru Kokoro goto subete nage daseta nara	For instance, even if today is painful Someday it will become a warm memory If you leave everything up to your heart
Koko ni ikiteru imi ga wakaru yo Umare ochita yorokobi o shiru LET'S STAY TOGETHER / itsu mo	I understand the meaning our living here It is to know the joy of having been born Let's stay together always

nota kaki:

1. yang ni scheduled post sebab takut tak sempat nak post..(i'll be away this weekend)
2. tak suka anime yang dah dubbed in English, rasa cam fake je..prefer the one in Japanese but with subtitles..=p
3. inche Seekerz cakap Allah dah tarik satu nikmat dunia dari aku sebab tak suka kucing.. ye ke??? i just can't stand it when the cat 'gesel-gesel' kat kaki..geli~ after all, cat is so adorable but to have a cat as pet.....hmm, i don't think so~

Atik with Aina Maisarah (adik Anis Marlina).. Snow is just so ADORABLE~

my first anniversary~ (.^_^.)

~26 March 2009-26 March 2010~

hari ini genap setahun dah berkasih sayang...


dengan inche blog..



rasa macam tak percaya je dah setahun berkecimpung dalam dunia 'blogging' ni..
dan aku masih setia dengan nama "...biarkan kupu-kupu menari..."
i like it!!!
walaupun in the beginning terasa macam ala-ala cacat sikit nama tu, tapi bertahan jugak sampai setahun..
ecece~ melebih-lebih la pulak kan?


setahun yang lepas, aku masih bergumbira dengan KI..
masa tu KI baru start kot..(23 March 2009)
sekarang aku masih bertatih di India for one scroll of degree..
hmm, maybe more than that..
just like Andrew's song-More Than A Doctor (he is my batchmate from Malaysia)
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=351362539287


dah setahun blogging ni, mungkin aku patut buat perubahan kot..
mungkin patut lebih matang dalam menulis..
have to differentiate between something to share and something that i need to keep for myself..
ayat pun patut diupgrade biar tak caca merba saja..
option: blogging in fully english or bahasa melayu yang sempurna (no slang, no shortform with correct grammar)
hmm...mungkin belum sampai tahap tu kot..
sebabnya kalau nak menulis dalam bahasa inggeris, grammar memang ke laut..
plus lack of vocabulary also..
kalau menulis dalam bahasa melayu pulak tatabahasa macam dah berkarat..
di tambah pula dengan perception aku bahasa melayu=skema+serious..
alasan je kan......
tapi aku bukan lupa daratan mahupun kacang lupakan kulit..
aku tahu, suatu masa nanti sirih akan pulang ke gagang..
and i've a dream to become a writer..
maybe novelist or poet..hahaha~
only one place where it could really happened: in my dream~


so, nak hadiah apa eh kat inche blog sempena setahun kami bersama?

new layout??

new header??

tapi masalahnya aku tak reti nak cari yang lawa..
*sigh*
ok lah, aku bagi kasih sayang je..
it's priceless though..=D
menulis dengan kasih sayang???
http://i306.photobucket.com/albums/nn252/cebong_ipit/ALL%20EMOTICON/pink%20mushroom/pink-mushroom-001.gif

dear aina:

 i miss the time when we actually lost while finding for monorail station to go to BTS (berjaya time square) from masjid jamek.. muka pro giler walaupun dah tersalah naik monorel, nasib baik tak gelak guling-guling.. 

i really want to spend time membazir_duit_beli_buku and jalan_sampai_kaki_rasa_nak_tercabut during bookfair.. it was fun!

nota kaki:

1. macam mengade je post macam ni kan? orang lain lama je dah mem'blog',xde kecoh cam aku..*sigh*
2. aku mahu VERSUS!!!! mahu pergi bookfair..=(
3. tiba-tiba rasa gadis kampung yang pakai kain batik+baju kurung kedah itu comel..(err,should i say Ayu~ =p) yang pandai masak+menjahit..pastu mengajar budak-budak mengaji+tuisyen.. yang bersopan santun dan halus tutur bahasa.. can i dream to be one? =D takpun letak dalam kriteria menantu pilihan bila dah ada anak nanti..*gelak guling2*

tak jumpa gambar gadis kampung ikut aku punya definisi..

gambar budak laki pakai kain pelikat pun boleh lah kot~

(gambar ihsan:http://kjkun.blogspot.com/2009/02/aku-dan-kain-pelikat.html)

buatmu sahabat..

dengan nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih Lagi Maha Penyayang,

aku memohon padaMu agar butir bicaraku bisa menjadi penguat semangatnya...

don't know where to start, how to start and what to start..


*tarik nafas dalam-dalam*


mula-mula sekali, saya nak minta maaf..
maaf kerana saya selalu terlupa yang awak baru mula mencari..
maaf kerana saya selalu merasakan yang awak dah lama menjadi seorang muslimah..
mungkin saya kurang sensitivity atau mungkin kerana saya dah lama merasakan awak adalah part of us..
saya minta maaf atas semuanya..


bila lama tak update pasal kisah hidup masing-masing, rupanya banyak yang saya tertinggal..
saya tak sedar yang awak perlukan seseorang to be there with you..
i admit that i'm not a good company..
awak tak cakap apa-apa, awak cakap awak masih kuat..
tapi saya masih rasa yang awak masih holding something back,something that you rather not talk about..
because it hurts even more when you think about it..


to be true, saya memang rasa ujian yang Allah bagi kat awak agak berat..
mungkin kalau ujian tu Allah turunkan kat saya, saya dah jatuh terjelepuk, menangis kerana merasa tak kuat..
tapi Allah pilih awak untuk segala ujianNYA..
dan awak tahu, Allah pun dah bagi tahu,

Dan Kami tidak memberati seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya; dan di sisi Kami ada sebuah Kitab (suratan amal) yang menyatakan segala-galanya dengan benar, sedang mereka tidak dianiaya. (Surah Al-Mukminun,23:62)

ada kalanya kepayahan hidup membuatkan kita rasa mahu berhenti biar cuma seketika..
biar hilang segala penat..
biar disapu air mata yang menitis..
agar mampu diraih kembali semangat yang kian hilang..
namun hidup bukan kita pengarahnya..
meski sedih, meski penat hidup harus diteruskan..
we have to keep moving on..

life is a chance..

but to live hell or to live well,

it is a choice....

Do men think that they will be left alone on saying "We believe" and that they will not be tested? (Surah Al-Ankabut,29:2)

"Be strong!!" that just maybe just typical people would say..

but i guess that's the only thing that i can say at this moment..

and i want you to know that you can spill anything to me..

anything and everything..

i mean it dear..

saya tahu awak risau yang teramat sangat..

cuma saya minta awak sandarkan kesedihan dan kerisauan awak kepada Allah..

jangan simpan semuanya sorang-sorang..

....soon it will blow up

dan kalau boleh awak jangan abaikan studi, k?

biar berjaya dan cepat-cepat balik malaysia..

no r**eat.. nauzubillahi minzalik~

You put on a fake smile, and hope for the best
People stare at you expectantly, as if life's just a test
The bounce in your step is long since gone
People dump worries on you like the pass of a baton
The whispers in the hall follow you each day
Causing confusion, and making you lose your way
But though life seems hard and is sometimes full of stress
There's always someone there who will lighten the press
So before you give up and give in to what others say
Think to yourself: "Tomorrow is another day." 

..a prayer may be seems so little this time but  it is the most powerful thing that you can do..
~InsyaAllah~

Dan Tuhan kamu berfirman: “Berdoalah kamu kepadaKu nescaya Aku perkenankan doa permohonan kamu. Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang sombong takbur daripada beribadat dan berdoa kepadaKu, akan masuk neraka Jahannam dalam keadaan hina. (Surah Ghaffir,40:60)

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I refuse to be discouraged, 
To be sad, or to cry, 
I refuse to be downhearted,
And here's the reason why... 

I have a God "Allah" who's mighty, 
Who's sovereign and supreme, 
I have a God "Allah" who loves me, 
And I am on His team. 

He is all wise and powerful, 
Most Merciful is His name, 
Though everything is changeable, 
My God "Allah" remains the same. 

My God "Allah" knows all that's happening, 
Beginning to the end, 
His presence is my comfort, 
He is my dearest friend. 

When sickness comes to weaken me, 
To bring my head down low, 
I call upon my mighty God "Allah", 
Into His arms I go. 

When circumstances threaten, 
To rob me from my peace, 
He draws me closer,
And with that i find ease. 

Where all my strivings cease.. 

And when my heart melts within me, 
And weakness takes control, 
He gathers me into His arms, 
He soothes my heart and soul.

The great "I AM" is with me, 
My life is in His hand, 
The "Allah" is my hope,
It's in His strength I stand. 

I refuse to be defeated, 
My eyes are on my Lord "Rabb", 
He has promised to be with me, 
As through this life I trod. 

I'm looking past all my circumstances, 
To Heaven's throne above, 
My prayers have reached My God "Allah", 
I'm resting in His love.. 

I give God "Allah" thanks in everything, 
My eyes seeks for him, 
The battle's His, 
the victory is mine, 
He'll help me win the race.

InshaAllah ...Ameen Ya Rabb..

taken from [here]

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buatmu sahabat....Nur Aina Adelia~
i'm sorry if i talk about you like i already knew you for ages..
teringat ada satu group kat facebook,

I Hate When People That Know Nothing About You Talk About You
saya tak mau jadi macam tu..
and if i did, i'm sorry dear..

Lady in Pink,
please do smile again..
if that is what it takes,
just fake it till you make it..
Tough times never last, but tough people do.

• Allah didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, or sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way. If Allah brings you to it, He will bring you through it. 

• Faith is believing when it is beyond the power of reason to believe.

• Don't tell God how big your storm is....tell your storm how big your God is.

• Sooner or later you will see the BIG PICTURE God is painting for your life instead of just the colors He's using at the moment. 

mana pemadam ni??

tengah kelam kabut nak menyiapkan lukisan Histology, 

aku sesedap oren je g kaler lukisan tu pink (Eosin) je..

pastu baru realise yang ada a few structure yang dah salah lukis..

kena padam ni..

eh, mana pemadam ni???

scrreeetttt~ *bukak pencil case*

alamak, pemadam xde la.. adeh~

rupa-rupanya dah lama pemadam takde kat dalam pencil case tu..

tak perasan langsung sebab selalu pinjam pemadam orang kot..

hehe~

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tiba-tiba ter'reflect' kat diri sendiri..
kalau kita ada pemadam, senang je kita nak padam kesalahan..
tapi bersih ke kita padam tu?
dan kisah ke kita tentang setiap kesalahan kalau kesalahan tu kita boleh padam je?
bak kata orang puteh, "as good as new..'


dan apa pulak kes kalau asyik pinjam pemadam orang macam aku ni?
bersembunyi di belakang orang lain atas kesalahan diri sendiri sampaikan tak realise yang sebenarnya dah banyak salah dibuat..
bila harus berdepan sendiri dengan kenyataan, mulalah berasa risau+gelisah..

sama-samalah kita renungkan ye..
bila di Akhirat nanti segala amalan akan dihitung..
dan tak mungkin kita akan jumpa pemadam untuk padam setiap kesalahan kita..

"Maka barangsiapa mengerjakan kebaikan seberat zarah, nescaya dia akan melihat (balasan)nya. Dan barangsiapa mengerjakan kejahatan seberat zarah, nescaya dia akan melihat (balasan)nya." 

Surah Az-Zalzalah,99:7-8

Tiada seorang pun dari kita yang dapat melibat zarah dengan mata kasar atau dengan
mikroscope, apa yang dapat dilihat hanyalah effect je macam 'Brown Movement'..
Amalan-amalan yang seberat zarah ni, tak kisahlah amalan baik atau amalan
jahat akan dihadirkan kelak dan diperlihatkan kepada kita dan akan diberikan balasan.
Oleh itu setiap orang tidak seharus nya memperkecil-kecilkan amalannya dengan mengatakan, "Ini cuma kecil sahaja, tidak dikira dan ditimbang." 
masa tu nanti, kita akan jadi sangat nervous di depan setiap perbuatan kita sebagaimana neraca yang halus akan bergerak meninggi atau menurun dengan sebab berat sebutir zarah itu.
Neraca yang menimbangkan amalan itu adalah suatu neraca yang tiada tolak bandingnya
di dalam dunia ini kecuali neraca di dalam hati mu'min iaitu hati yang terus
menggeletar, kerana melakukan kebaikan atau kejahatan seberat atom.
(ubah suai dari sini)


nota kaki:

1. aku kena sambung lukis Histo ni..
2. harap2 korang faham la apa yang aku cuba nak sampaikan ni..
3. ada masa nanti aku edit balik post ni, bagi senang sikit faham..
4. lately sangat suka menulis nota kaki..hehe~ =D