surat di hari lahir

Happy 24th Zarifah Adilah!
a year older hopefully means a year wiser.
but still, we both know age is just a number and maturity does not reflected upon the age.

Dila,
I am just a part of you, a part that was there before and forever.
I don't want to just merely wish you like others,
I want to pray for us, for the little wish that we have,
for the destination that we dream to reach.

Dila,
I know that you want to be a better person.
I do too.
And I know the road there aren't all that pretty.
I promised you with the promise of Allah that you'll make it through.
You just have to work a little harder, pray a little more.

Dila,
I pray to Allah for the good things.
I pray that you will be steadfast in your Imaan, to have a strong faith,
Be wise to differentiate between right and wrong,
Be strong to overcome the storm in your life,
Be gentle when dealing with heart,
Be generous to those who are in need,
Be compassionate in treating people,
Be brave to venture into new things.

Above all,
semoga setiap langkah bersama Allah,
dan semoga redha Allah juga bersama dirimu.


Nah, hadiah hari lahir!

 

hadiah lain, nanti lah ye?

Randomly visit this IG.

She is just 21/22 years old but already married and has a 2 years old baby boy.  She is soooo pretty flawsless putih comel natural beauty bergaya pandai kurus medic student, basically everything that I wanted. Jealous? Envious? The feeling is, "wow, you are so lucky! I wish I have that too."

Then suddenly I remember what I was supposed to do before stuck with IG and kept on scrolling the photos; I was supposed to read my novel, drink my tea and sleep after that. And before that? I was supposed to clean and tidy up the room.






Lesson learnt today:

Bukanlah dengan berangan-angan sesuatu itu akan jadi kenyataan.


Selalu berharap rezeki dan kejayaan jatuh gedebuk tanpa perlu berusaha. Sedangkan makan perlu disuap ke mulut, perlu dikunyah, mana wujud senang lenang untuk mendapatkan kebaikan. Hai manusia, mimpi sahaja mana mungkin akan sampai ke Syurga!

The fact is we always feel that other people got better share than us. They have everything that you wish for. That the grass is always greener on the other side. But you forget one thing: they too have difficulties in life, they too have to overcome obstacles to deserve what the have now and whatever they have in possession, surely will be asked in akhirah whether they use it properly or not. Have you ever thought that somewhere,  someone else is praying for things that you have taken for granted?
Your God has carefully planned everything and everything is planned in your best interest. The most awesome ultimate plan. This, you have to believe!

sebuah pesan

Khas untuk Dila yang 24 tahun,

You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, smarter than you think and loved more than you imagine. Darling, you worth more than what you thought. Don't give up fighting, you haven't reach your dream destination yet --Jannah.

And don't  forget to say,
hadza min fadhli rabbi
(semua ini adalah kurniaan dari Tuhanku)

Jangan nangis ok?
Allah kan ada.
Senyum ye?

-Dari Dila yang masih 23 tahun.

“I firmly believe in small gestures: pay for their coffee, hold the door for strangers, over tip, smile or try to be kind even when you don’t feel like it, pay compliments, chase the kid’s runaway ball down the sidewalk and throw it back to him, try to be larger than you are— particularly when it’s difficult. People do notice, people appreciate. I appreciate it when it’s done to (for) me. Small gestures can be an effort, or actually go against our grain (“I’m not a big one for paying compliments…”), but the irony is that almost every time you make them, you feel better about yourself. For a moment life suddenly feels lighter, a bit more Gene Kelly dancing in the rain.”
— Jonathan Carroll

random act of kindness

As I was wondering aimlessly in my mind, I asked myself,

"Did I do anything to make me happy today?"

I tried to thing the act of services to anyone but I found none. Only a random smile to a makcik (a patient who was standing near the reception) who I have to think hard. I realised that I haven't done anything countable today. What make me smile and feel appreciated today is that how a pakcik (Class D worker) asked me when am I going to have lunch because it was almost 2 o'clock in afternoon. How a makcik (penjual buah) asked me how am I doing and where am I now. I feel bad sebab bersangka-sangka kepada makcik tu. I thought she would 'force' to buy her fruits but she didn't. So who is bad actually?

You. Who ever you are.

If you have time and capasities to do something, do it.

Do some random act of kindness.

Be it smile a stranger, or say hi to an old man, help somebody carry their groceries etc, do it!

You might be the reason of happiness in a person. You might be the reason for a helpless person to think that the world is not such bad place after all because there are people like you.

And if you didn't get what you want in this world, Allah will rewards you more than you can imagine provided that you're ikhlas and do it for the sake of Allah.

May Allah bless us with random act of kindness.



nota kaki:

• Ramadhan makin dekat. Moga Allah sampaikan kita ke bulan yang penuh barakah dan semoga kita mendapat kebaikan seluas-luasnya.

mainan tidur

I had a dream today.

I dreamt of a beautiful event, to good to be true that even in the dream, I know that it was not real but I could feel that I was happy, my heart filled with joy and other unrecognised feelings.

The dream ended.

I have to wake up.

Moga realiti lebih baik daripada mimpi.






I don't think that is consider as a sign sebab tidur siang yang bukanlah dalam doa meminta. Syaitan, sila main jauh-jauh, don't feed my mind with false hope.

redha suami, syurga isteri

Perkongsian daripada Ustaz Ridha.

"Makcik akan tuntut janji pakcik nanti."

Kisahnya, di penghujung nyawa, pakcik berbisik di telinga makcik.
Jelas sekali.
"Abang akan tunggu sayang di syurga."
Dan pakcik meninggal dengan menyebut kalimah Allah.

Listened to this story, it broke my heart yet filled it with hopes and fears. Hampir tumpah air mata.I hope I'll find the one that will holds my hand and leads us the way to Jannah but I am scared if I married the wrong person or I didn't do my part to be the righteous wife. 

Sedang aku mungkin hanya bersangka-sangka tentang masa depan yang aku tak punya ilmu mengenainya. Sedang mungkin rasa cuma bermain-main dalam hati. Sudah lupakah Dila? Yang Tuhanmu Maha Mengetahui. Tell Him, ask Him, pray to Him. May He guide you to the ultimate happiness. 

I saw from my FB's news feed, that a girl just died - I never knew who she was before. I clicked on her page just to find out that she married my high school's senior.

"And in her smile I see something more beautiful than the stars."

This is what he wrote (before the accident) as the caption of her photo in her wedding dress.They got married early this year. There is heavy feeling occupied my chest.

*tarik nafas dalam-dalam*

Doa dalam hati, 

"Moga suamimu redha akan pemergianmu."





satu [blog post] yang rasa sangat ( insert your own words here ).
tak, bukan kemaruk nak berkahwin atau dilamun cinta. I just want the best for myself.