salam aidiladha

"SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!!!"

esok tanggal 10 Zulhijah 1430H..
so, esok raya!!!!
(ini Malaysia dan kawasan yang sewaktu dengannya sahaja~)
InsyaAllah kalau x silap, kami di India ni akan menyambut Aidiladha lusa, 28 November 2009..
tapi, hari tu tak cuti..
akan ada kelas sampai petang..
haish~ penatnya..

mungkin ada yang masih perlu disyukuri..
sekurang-kurangnya tak perlu melihat katak dikorbankan..
dah tengok katak kena bedah hari Rabu..
juga tidak perlu men'dissect'(membedah) cadaver(mayat) yang telah terkorban..
dah dissect almost tiap2 hari kot..
hanya korbankan masa dan tenaga..
(ermm..determination of platelet count x payah cucuk tangan kan???)

ucapan:
dengan ini,
saya ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha buat keluarga tersayang,sanak saudara di Malaysia, sahabat2 yang berada di Malaysia dan juga di ceruk benua asing, dan juga buat umat Islam seluruh dunia..

jom sama-sama hayati makna di sebalik takbir raya..

Allah Maha Besar, Allah Maha Besar, Allah Maha Besar,
Tiada Tuhan (yang berhak disembah) melainkan Allah dan Allah Maha Besar,
Allah Maha Besar dan segala puji-pujian hanya layak bagi Allah.
Allah Maha Besar Yang Teramat Besar, Segala Puji bagi Allah Yang Teramat Banyak,
Maha suci Allah pada waktu pagi dan petang,
Tiada Tuhan melainkan Allah, dan Tidak ada lain yang kami sembah melainkan Dia,
Kami ikhlas kepadaNya (mengikuti ajaran agama Islam) sekalipun dibenci oleh orang-orang kafir,
Tiada Tuhan melainkan Allah Yang Tunggal,
Yang Menepati janjiNya, Yang Menolong hambaNya,
Dan Yang Memuliakan tenteraNya dalam mengalahkan tentera al-Ahzab dengan sendiri (KekuasaanNya),
Tidak ada Tuhan melainkan Allah dan Allah Maha Besar,
Allah Maha Besar dan segala puji-pujian hanya bagi Allah.

Que Sera Sera

i don't know whether it just me who touched by this video or it is touching..
when i look at their happy face, it just makes me want to...... cry feel sad..

"Que sera sera"
When I was just a little girl,
I asked my mother, 'What will I be?
'Will I be pretty?
'Will I be rich?'
Here's what she said to me:

'Que sera, sera,
'Whatever will be, will be;
'The future's not ours to see.
'Que sera, sera,
'What will be, will be.'

When I was just a little boy,
I asked my mother, 'What will I be?
'Will I be handsome?
'Will I be rich?'
Here's what she said to me:

'Que sera, sera,
'Whatever will be, will be;
'The future's not ours to see.
'Que sera, sera,
'What will be, will be.

everyone has their own dream..
a dream is a wish your heart make..
kanak-kanak ni sangat 'istimewa'..
tapi punya impian seperti kita..
bukankah kita sangat bertuah..
everything just seems perfect compared to them..
tapi berapa banyak yang kita bersyukur?

"Maka nikmat Tuhan kamu yang manakah yang kamu dustakan?"

~Surah Ar-Rahman~

p/s:i was supposed to study but this is what happened.. hopefully,it reminds us of what we have right now, at this moment..
we will never miss the water until the well is dried..

road not taken

well, after a while (ermm..is it 4 months??)living in india, I started to think again..

why am i choosing this path?
why did i accept the offer to go to india at the first place?
what makes me think that i'm capable being a medical student?
what makes me survive all this time?

susahnya nak jawab sebab memang takde jawapan yang paling tepat..
what i can say now is,
"i couldn't asked for more than this.."
India. not half bad then.
I'm living India.. or should it be better if I say,
"I'm making a life in India.."
a life of medical student, a Malaysian citizen, a child that being away from her family..
and what most important is A LIFE OF A MUSLIM.. (it's hard though..but worth living..=p)
I want to make a life so that after this I could save a life..
(dalam otak spontan main lagu "How to Save A Life-The Fray"..ala, lagu lam cter Grey's Anatomy tu)
giving hope to those who lost the faith in life..
(besarnya harapan ko,cik dila oi!)

tadi, berjalan2 menjengah blog orang..
and i found something..
he said that living in cold weather is not really heaven..
mula2 je seronok tp lepas tu rasa nak bagi rosak je 'aircond' tu sebab sejuk sangat..
n they're all longing to be touch by the ray of sunshine..
(he=someone who is currently studying somewhere in USA)
see, tak semua yang nampak best tu sebenarnya menarik..
(india byk matahari!!!=p tp kadang2 sejuk gak.. bright sunshine but cold breeze)

The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost


Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

(bagi sesiapa yang tak tahu/tak ingat.. ni poem yang kita belajar masa Form4)

“Men are not prisoners of fate, but only prisoners of their own minds.”
– Franklin Roosevelt-

won't u agree with this?
so, whatever the path that we choose, just bear in mind,
"You are what you think.."
and it's u who make the different..
the one who paints all the colours in ur life..

article to share:Prisoners of Fate

“Most people choose the path of life as a way to death, but I have chosen death (martyrdom) as a path to life (in Paradise).”

- Abdul-Wahab Al-Ghamidi who was killed in Afghanistan in the 1980’s-

tiada sebab... post lepas exam mungkin?

sungguh tak tahu macam mana nak start..
but then, i'm going to say that
my 1st Internal Examination is
officially ended..
habis exam semalam.. friday-around 3.30pm
well, just for batch D1,D2,E1 n E2(my batch) because another batch still having their examination on this monday since last monday was our holiday..
viva voce (oral test) n OSPE(objective structured practical examination)
hmm.. it's kinda relief..
at least for now before i'm going to 'pengsan' soon seeing my marks..

dush..gedebush..


x kesah la..
yang penting stress masa exam semua dah hilang..
masa ni la doa n tawakal yang main peranan..
ada jugak rasa guilty sebab rasa macam tak cukup usaha..
it just feels like i haven't giving my best yet..
banyak main2 je..

sungguh la aku tak faham..
musim exam n dah habis exam, my life was totally upside down..
musim exam:
1.selalu tido awal w/pun patut studi (pukul 9 dah tido tp x bangun awal pun)
2.selalu berangan (x boleh fokus)
3.banyak idea untuk benda2 merapu like writing stories, update blog..
4.selalu rasa sleepy n tired padahal tak bwat apa pun..
lepas exam:
1.rasa penat n pening tp x boleh tido..
2. my mind just totally blank to write new post in my blog..
3. i can't even understand n imagine the story that i'm currently reading now..

~WINGS by Aprilynne Pike (UK covers)~

this is the book that i'm reading now..
just gone through a few chapters so i can't say much about it..
i bought it last week where i was supposed to watch 2012 but it turn out that the show was at 3.15pm n we were there at 11.50am..
actually i dont read book much ever since i was in high school where the teacher always confiscated ur book..(sapa suruh baca masa cikgu tgh mengajar kat depan..=p)
habis tu kenapa beli?
1.i want to buy book in india tapi buku lain macam tak menarik..
2.cover dia lawa, purple n shining..=p
3.tulisan dia agak besar so takde la serabut sangat kot kalau nak baca..
4.STEPHENIE MEYER recommended the book so i thought the book worth reading..

p/s:tadi g tengok 2012,my second movie here after Harry Potter..

penakut~

saya takut..
saya memang seorang yang penakut..


takut apa??
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lain kali je cerita pasal takut
exam pun tak habis..
tapi tak takut exam..
*takut sikit je... ke banyak jugak eh?*
baca buku pun asyik terlelap je..
tapi saya harus belajar bersungguh-sungguh..
bersemangat!!!

Allah turunkan Al-Quran untuk semua

Maha Suci Allah yang telah menurunkan Al Furqaan (Al Quran) kepada hamba-Nya, agar dia menjadi pemberi peringatan kepada seluruh alam (Surah Al Furqan,25:1)

Yesterday was my last theory paper for the First Internal Examination which is Biochemistry.
How was it?
~no comment~
can't say much because through out the whole examination, my mind was totally blank..
*mmg padan pun blank sbb x blaja*
macam nak cakap,"macam pernah ku lihat tapi di mana ya??"
tapi muka sangat 'confident' berjaya menipu tempe2..
b4 exam senyum je, buku pun x bawak.. lenggang kangkung je..
masa exam pun fokus gler, x tnya pun soklan kat orang lain..
lepas exam,muka tenang je..
tapi dalam berkecai, berderai..
diaorang tak tengok lagi kertas jawapan tu..
mesti tergelak guling2 baca jawapan aku..

Before that, we were totally freaked out...
macam2 je idea jahat..
nak jatuh tergolek2 dari tangga, kena diarrhea, demam yang x larat nak bangun..
sebabnya taknak jawab exam..
haish~
mungkin sebab dah lama tak exam..
as far as i could remember, my last exam was A2 examination..
which was a year ago..
padanlah nervous tahap cipan..
but of course we did have examination during KI course..
tapi tak serious pun..
masa exam Tamil, Miss Rajesh boleh je bacakan jawapan sbb semua muka blur je tengok paper..
tapi still tak boleh jawab sebab konfius Miss cakap huruf yang mana satu..

~ini cerita yang sepatutnya~

that morning (about an hour b4 the exam), one of my friend came into our room..
*twin-sharing room*
she just sat on my roomate's bed quitely..
she: let me hold ur hands.. give me strength, i'm really scared..
my roomate: *muka blur* how do expect me to give strength to u?
she: never mind lah.. can u let me hold ur Quran to give strength to me?
*dia tengok al-Quran kat atas rak*
me and my roomate agak terkejut..
aku yang tgh duduk atas katil sebelah sambil dgr lagu pun terus toleh..
both of us just look at her and couldn't say anything..
totally speechless~
she: it's ok2.. dulu my fren pun tak bagi pegang Al-Quran..
we=me/my roomate/both of us.. *x ingat*
we:rasanya bukan tak boleh.. entahlah~ orang selalu x bagi orang pegang al-Quran tapi macam x pernah dgr yang non-muslim x boleh pegang..
~end of the story~

setelah meng'google', jumpa lah jawapan..

Kesemua ulamak bersetuju bahawa terjemahan Al Quran boleh dipegang. Walaubagaimanapun terdapat percanggahan pendapat dalam kalangan ulamak mengenai boleh atau pun tidak non muslim menyentuh teks asal Al- Quran yakni dalam bahasa arab. [klik sini]

setiap kali orang risau nak exam n cakap aku relax je,
*luar je nampak relax,dalam dah risau sgt2..macam ada tsunami n break down byk kali kot sampai dah tinggal debu je*
rasa nak cakap ayat pemujuk yang ada dalam al-Quran..
because everytime rasa down sangat2, tapi masa tu ingat yang Allah ada, that's what keep me moving forward..
~HE is my sustaining force~

tapi masalahnya dia orang non-muslim..
tak tahu macam mana nak susun ayat..
nak kasi dia dgr lagu ke?
masa tu telinga tengah berdentum dengan lagu You Are Never Alone-Zain Bhikha..
boleh ke???

You are never alone (you are never alone)
Just reach into your heart
And Allah is always there.
You are never alone (you are never alone)
Through sorrow and through grief
Through happiness and peace
You are never alone.

saya masih budak..=p

quote from-SHREK THE THIRD
*i know its lame but i'm just a kid*


~comel..=p~

(CADANGAN: play video kat bawah tu then baru baca.. baru boleh faham kot)
01:15:03 Everybody, stop!
01:15:05
01:15:07 Oh, what is it now?!
01:15:09
01:15:09 Artie?
01:15:10
01:15:20 Who thinks we need to settle things this way?
01:15:22
01:15:27 You're telling me that you just want to be villains your whole lives?
01:15:30
01:15:31 But we are villains! It's the only thing we know.
01:15:34
01:15:35 You never wish you could be something else?
01:15:37
01:15:37 Easy for you to say. You're not some evil enchanted tree.
01:15:41
01:15:41 You morons! Don't listen to him! Attack!
01:15:43
01:15:44 What Steve means is it's hard to come by honest work
01:15:46
01:15:47 when the whole world's against you.
01:15:49
01:15:49 Right. Thanks, Ed.
01:15:50
01:15:51 Fair enough. You're right.I'm not a talking tree.
01:15:55
01:15:55 But you know...
01:15:56
01:15:56 ...a good friend once told me...
01:15:59
01:16:00 ...just because people treat you like a villain, or an ogre...
01:16:05
01:16:05 ...or just some loser...
01:16:07
01:16:08 ...doesn't mean you are one.
01:16:10
01:16:13 The thing that matters most is what you think of yourself.
01:16:17
01:16:17 If there's something you really want, or someone you want to be...
01:16:21
01:16:22 ...the only person standing in your way is you.
01:16:25
01:16:26 - Me?
- Get him!
01:16:27
01:16:28 No, no, no!
01:16:29
01:16:29 What I mean is each of you...
01:16:32
01:16:32 ...is standing in your own way.
01:16:34
01:16:38 I always wanted to play the flute.
01:16:41
01:16:41 I'd like to open up a spa... in France!
01:16:45
01:16:45 I grow daffodils. And they're beautiful.
01:16:49
01:17:38 A new era finally begins!
01:17:41
01:17:43 Now all of you...
01:17:45
01:17:46 ...bow before your King!
01:17:48
01:17:54 You need to work on your aim.
01:17:57
01:17:59 This was supposed to be my happily ever after!
01:18:02
01:18:02 Well, I guess you need to keep looking...
01:18:05
01:18:07 ...because I'm not giving up mine.
(nombor2 ni adalah timing dalam cerita shrek)

p/s: tak semua cartoon bagi bad influence.. there's always things to learn n inspire..

for example in "Horton's Hears A Who"
Horton cakap:
"i said what i meant, and i meant what i said" ~honest n responsible~

"a person is a person no matter how small they are.." ~caring~

i don't know why this happen..
lately, sangat2 mudah break down..
negative thinking plak saja je nak kacau perasaan aku ni..
dah la anak perantau, 'dia' asyik nak buli aku..
(dia=negative thinking)

mula2 dah ok dah..
i know i'm gonna make this through..
but somehow, 'dia' yang jahat itu cuba meracuni fikiran aku lagi..

kenapa break down??
sebab tak lama lagi nak exam..
(theory paper 12-14 november 2009)
tak prepare apa2 lagi..
bayangkan, ada lagi 2 chapter 4 anatomy yang tak sentuh lagi..
(2 chapter=1 buku yg quite 'tebal')
kalau setakat baca je takpe la..
kena hafal~
untuk anatomy pulak DIAGRAM IS A MUST..
physiology n biochemistry toksah cerita la..

dikelilingi tempe2 yang macam telan buku bwatkan aku lagi cuak..
bila lecturer tanya soalan, macam pop corn je jawapan keluar..
orang lain gler pulun studi..
aku asyik nak tertido je tiap kali baca buku..
rasa nak muntah hijau pun ada gak ni..

~self-motivation~
duhai cik zarifah adilah..
bukan namanya berjuang kalau macam ni dah nak mengalah..
selagi belum exam, selagi tu lah ada masa lagi..
jangan break down dulu..
jangan muntah hijau dulu..
baru rasa jadi budak medic eh? haha~

::nerd=budak medic?? *no no no*::

hmm..
doa banyak2 cik zarifah adilah..
yakinlah Allah akan tolong..
provided that u try first..
yang lain tu serahkan je pada Allah..
insyaAllah, Dia akan berikan yang terbaik..
fate will fares u well..
~Allah pegang kunci hikmah tiap kejadian~
(curi tajuk post cik Seekerz)

buat kamu yang membaca: Doakan saya buat yang terbaik nanti.. pray 4 my success~

Hari ni Hari Lahir my sayang..
my lil' bro..
to Abdul Aidil Azrie b. Abdul Rahman:
"Happy 8th Birthday!! semoga menjadi anak yang soleh ye.. Semoga jadi pembela agama satu masa nanti.. I LOVE YOU.."

:Ee-ilusi webcam::
SELAMAT HARI LAHIR YANG KE-8
(miss u~)

p/s:
1.saya patut studi bukan tulis entry baru..
2.saya dah tadek fs,ms,tagged.. insyaAllah blog masih bernyawa..
(fb dah deactivated-doakan lah saya bertahan)