a little too awkward

semalam lepas kelas, kawan aku (malaysian) singgah bilik. memang baik dengan dia sebab satu batch posting, roll no pun dekat-dekat je.

*ringtone*

Incoming call

XYZ

batchmate tempe yang call. pastu aku jawab la. memang la tak tahu nak borak ape pastu memang teruk sungguh respon aku. nampak la si kawan ni tadi sengih je. konon tengah sengih tengok benda lain padahal sengih tengok aku cakap kat telefon.

lepas letak phone tu, dia memang gelak kuat-kuat.

"Apesal kau gelak?"

"Takde lah. Kau tu awkward sangat cakap dengan XYZ."

"Kau tak tengok lagi aku call pakcik auto. Tu pun nak awkward."

"Aku tahu kau memang camtu."

The truth is I am that awkward sometimes, well most of the time. But once I've become comfortable with you, I can talk forever and unleash those weird behavior. hahaha~
if i'm awkward around you, it is not because i dont like you. i just need more time for us to 'click'.
terpaksalah terima seadanya.

dah sampai kolar dah ni. heee
xdelah 8 jam macam dalam gambar tu. belgaum-bangalore 10 jam, bangalore-kolar 2 jam.

nota kaki:

• rupanya bila post entry kat blog guna phone, gamba dia kecik je. 

same ship, different cabin

emotions, feelings are those abstract things that can't be well explained by words.

andai kata kau juga melihat dan merasa hal yang serupa pastilah lebih mudah kau mentafsir segala makna yang tersirat di balik kata.
hakikatnya 26 aksara tak mampu mentafsirkan sejuta rasa, menyebar selaut cinta.

berada di 'kapal' yang sama, namun rasa mungkin tak sama. but definitely we are heading to the same destination, right? insyaAllah~

......................................

"as truth to be told, homecoming never gets old."

moga kembali menuju jalan pulang, kembali kepada fitrah juga begitu.
never gets old!
ameen~




nota kaki:

• Sleepless night in the bouncing bus heading back to Belgaum.
• gambar bukti ukhwah ^^ aku memang tamak tanak tunjuk gambar akhwat terchenta. makanya tengoklah muka yours truly ni sampai muntah hijau. silakan~

GURU- Bangalore, Mac 2013

tadi Puan Ann, pegawai JPA di India tulis status kat fesbuk macam ni:

"Buat masa ini, Program Khas ke India telah dihentikan namun usah bimbang...adik-adik masih boleh memohon untuk Program Khas Jerman, Perancis, Jepun dan Korea."

Oh? o_O


nota kaki:

• India dah tak best agaknya nak hantar student. 
• aku tak faham kenapa aku kena tulis benda ni kat blog. tak significant langsung kan?

casually walked into the labour room to give coffee to my friends who are being posted there. after all, we finished our class early today.

to my surprised, i actually i saw a lady giving birth to a twin, errr i think both are girls (lupa nak tengok second baby).
disebabkan memang tak expect pun akan nampak orang bersalin, yelah kan nak gi jumpa orang je jadi memang tak fikir apa-apa pun.

a feeling that i can't really described here.
terkejut, berdebar, gembira, terharu, berfikir.
indeed, it is a miracle.
Subhanallah~
i hope the babies are fine. based on USG scan (during pregnancy) the babies only weight about 900 grams.


sungguhlah kan, kita ni tak tahu apa yang Allah nak hadiahkan at the end of the day.
moga apa jua kurnia Dia akan jadikan kita hamba yang bersyukur.
ameen~

nota kaki:

• i saw stillbirth baby too. =(
• i'll have my labour posting at the end of the year. and no, i haven't help delivered any baby yet.
• leaving to Bangalore tonight. ok, nak pergi packing barang dulu.

wordless wednesday #19

“But the eyes are blind. One must look with the heart.

"... Ini negara bebas! Yang mau copet, copet. Yang mau ngasong, ngasong."

this is a really great movie!
'lucu' benerrr negeri ini dong.

pada jiwa-jiwa anak muda ini, sungguh ada cahaya namun mereka seperti pelita lama, diselaputi habuk, kehabisan minyak. buat kita yang sedar, yang lebih beruntung, moga Allah ilhamkan jalan buat kita bagi menyalakan cahaya pelita itu. membangunkan anak bangsa yang kenal Tuhannya, yang tahu tujuan hidupnya. moga terang masa depan dunia. dan akhirat juga pastinya.

maka Dia mengilhamkan kepadanya (jalan) kejahatan dan ketakwaannya. Sungguh beruntung orang yang menyucikannya (jiwa itu). Dan sungguh rugi orang yang mengotorinya.
-Surah Asy-Syams,91:8-10

Maka terhadap anak yatim janganlah engkau berlaku sewenang-wenang. Dan terhadap orang yang meminta-minta, janganlah engkau mengherdiknya. Dan terhadap nikmat Tuhanmu, hendaklah engkau nyatakan (dengan bersyukur)
-Surah Ad-Dhuha, 93:9-11

figura yang kian hilang di pandangan walhal pernah sedekat realiti. atau mungkin yang berada di pelukan, berserakan seperti debu.

kalau difikir-fikir, yang mana satunya lebih meranapkan jiwa?

Jamais Vu

Jamais vu is French for "never seen." It describes a situation that is basically the opposite of deja vu -- something that should be familiar isn't. You may have experienced this if you have said a common word too many times in a row and it eventually didn't even seem like a real word anymore. This suggests that the phenomenon may be a symptom of brain fatigue.

It happends all the time when I wrote a certain word repeatedly. 

Sampaikan rasa macam, "eh betul ke ejaan macam ni?"

Siap Google segala bagai, rasa macam perkataan tu tak wujud. The arrangement of the letters just don't make any sense at all.

tricky mind, huh?

nota kaki:

• Petrichor (this is the word for "the smell of rain")

of the finer things....

I think that I miss home much. very much!

ni budak kecik jiran sebelah rumah yang dah besar dah.  Asyraf said "Hi!"

and those cats and kittens too.

I am not a cat lover but I was there when these kittens were born, checking on them everyday. By chance, I have to be the one who fed the cats and gave them bath because Anis is scared of cats and Azrie was too lazy to do it. Now, I am here, missing the opportunity to see the grow up! (perasaan mak-mak sungguh la.. haih~)

nota kaki:

• and I miss fighting with the little brother and camwhoring with not-so-little sister. I miss everyone!

enthusiasm

Today we had Surgery lecture on liver diseases by our Surgery professor who is also our current principal. He is a very ethusiastic man and amazed by lots of things, like he said this morning,

"..you are lucky to be studying medicine in this era where a lot of exciting things are happening."

Dia memang semangat pasal latest advancement in medicine, nobel prize etc. He always told us about what happened in the past when those imaging modalities were not available yet. Cucuk sana, potong sini, ikut nasib la kalau terjumpa apa yang nak dicari tu dan apabila dia bercerita(?) pasal USG, CT scan, PET scan macam boleh rasa mata dia bersinar-sinar tapi kanak-kanak yang duduk dengar dalam kelas tu buat muka bosan je. haih~

courtesy of [Scheda]

lebih kurang macam ni la kot. hahaha~

tapi dia lelaki la, umur dalam 50-an? 

So he was telling something about life cycle of Echinococcus ( name of the parasite), then suddenly he was smiling and got excited to tell something. You know, the kind of feeling that you get when you suddenly remember something interesting and funny.

Dia ada kucing kat rumah, pastu tiba-tiba kucing tu nampak tak sihat. .

......<i forgot what he said here>......

"I went after my cat to collect the stool samples to send it to lab. I could see with my naked eyes that something is moving, something alive in the stools. The report came out and there was Ecchinococcus in the stools. So I was thinking and thinking what medication to give to my cat. I found drug called Praziquantel but the problem is how to give it to my cat??? You know, it is much more difficult to give medication to cat compared to dog. I don't know how many of you have experienced it.  

It took me 7 days to just figure out the effective way to administer the drug to the cat. Day 1: I mixed Praziquantel in the milk but the cat ran away as soon as it could smells the drug.   

I was experimenting various way for the cat to eat the drug. Finally, I found the best way is to mix Praziquantel with butter, make it like a paste. 

Ok, lets continue to the clinical features........"

"Hello world!" said Mr. Echinococcus

What makes me admired him is not because of the cat story or the Echinococcus but merely because of his enthusiasm. How many things make him wonders, observes and discovers the minute details of life that could inspired him eventhough he is now an elderly man. It is quite shameful that we as the young generations have lost the sense of wonder. We are not amazed by things that are happening around us just because it is already there.

Macam nikmat Allah jugak la, hanya kerana segala nikmat tu memang dah ada (life, health, oxygen, food, shelter etc) kita tak rasa perlu pun untuk bersyukur. We are losing the sense of wonder and sense of gratitude. What's left is the ATTITUDE that couldn't possibly bring us anywhere if not drag us down.

"It is a wonderful thing. You should not lose the sense of wonder." 

-Dr. Ashok Godhi

nota kaki:

• sudden craving of something sweet and yummy. baking addiction? banoffee pie sounds nice and seems to be the-comfort-food category.. ^^ 

moments #13

"...kat mana budak tu lapkan taik hidung dia tadi?"

"there! that exact spot, yang ada bunga tu."

"eh, kalau baju ada taik hidung, batal tak solat?" muka penuh tanda tanya.

"errr, tak kot....."

"I don't think so."

"ha'a, tak batal solat pun."

"saja je tanya sebab mana la tau kot lah batal solat. sebabnya kan nama dia taik hidung, so macam yuckyyyy ewwww~ "

so much of social stigma.

bakal cik puan: barakallah!

so finally, my dear roomate (ex-roomate to be exact) announced her wedding date, which is on:

*drum rolls*

6 April 2013.

sorry darling, I can't attend your special day.
I have classes and I don't think I can afford flight Bangalore-KL-KB-KL-Bangalore.
tapi doa kami tetap bersama kamu ye..
but Aina and I are planning to come down to Kolar before you become somebody's wife. *wink*

been her roomate just for 3 months (for Kursus Intensif) but we definitely shares happiness together.
it is not about how much time we spent together, but how much we care about each other.
destined to be this happy with you guys, I'm so glad! Alhamdulillah for this ukhwah, ya Allah!

Lagenda 2009 - Manipal

Dila + Trah

because we are sooo cool thus we don't have that many pictures together! hahahaha~
lagipun bahagia bukan pada gambar kan?
*poyo-ness*
padahal sebenanya jarang jumpa pun pastu gambar ada dalam external hardisk yang tertinggal kat rumah.
so, yeayyy!


this is for you my dear,

courtesy of [this person]

sayang awak! (walaupun dah kena share dengan encik bakal husband awak nanti =P)
i love you fillah, fi dunya wal akhirah~
saya doakan yang terbaik untuk awak dan semoga dipermudahkan urusan menaiki tangga maratib amal.

oh ye, selamat tahun akhir dan selamat bakal pengantin baru!