option and probability

dulu pernah dengar ceramah motivasi peperiksaan. err, motivasi kecemerlangan? tak ingat pulak orang panggil apa. kem motivasi kot.....

katanya, bila nak jawab soalan objektif, mula dengan menggariskan kata kunci. kemudian buang/eliminate pilihan jawapan yang dah trang tang tang salah.
Rational:

• the probability of one out of two answer options being correct is 50% or 1/2.
• the probability of one out of four answer options being correct is 25% or 1/4.

nampak tak macam mana rasional di sebalik pengurangan pilihan tu. supaya kebarangkalian untuk dapat jawapan yang tepat itu lagi tinggi.

ok....

but what if to choose between LIFE or DEATH? you really have to choose between those two and you really don't know what to choose because you have no clue of which option will leads to life and which one will cause death.

maybe it is easier if you are to choose from a range of options and the answer would be probably on the scale of 1 to 10. no clear demarcation of what is good and what is bad. maybe you will end up at 8 which is not half bad. maybe 5 to be just average. but the point is, in this situation it will be less of mental stress and emotional unstability because it is not A or B. not correct or wrong. not win or lose. not living or being the dead. maybe the probability fact won't hit you that hard. 

say P(x)=50% and you by chance choose the wrong answer. maybe you would say, "i wish i choose the other one so that i will get the marks." then, you will be depressed and blame yoursellf and fate. kata dah bertawakal sepenuhnya pada Allah, ni apa kes pulak cenggini?

and when P(x)=25%, the stress wouldn't be too much. if you choose the wrong answer, you would say i might choose between another 2 wrong answers, so there's no much different and if you happened to select the correct option, you say you being so lucky! eh, mana perginya konsep rezeki (kejayaan/ kekayaan/ kemenangan etc) daripada Allah?

tentang pilihan. suratan atau kebetulan? kebarangkalian?

ISLAM.

I am very very glad that this is the only option.

so that there will be no doubt to embrace the truth.

no probabilty to be associated with. just have to deal with the constant fluctuation of iman.

nota kaki:

• tetiba teringat pasal probability ni sebab asyik dok tembak je jawapan MCQ. ooo la di daaa~
• pilihan raya pun boleh kira jugak ke guna sistem kebarangkalian ni? o.O

your character says a lot of things

"we cannot sacrifice ethics for victory. we cannot sacrifice good characters for victory."

a story that i listened from one legacy radio. a great story indeed.

there was once when i was studying in Oklahoma. one day there was a woman trying to carry lots of stuff i.e. computer, projector etc. so here a guy who saw this happened, he went to the lady and help her to carry those things to communication building. 

after that she said,"can i ask you something? are you a muslim?" 

"yes, i am." answered the young man. a bit puzzled. 

"i knew it! i know that how you guys are." 

it was something huge because he went back crying. happy tears.

some people has this mindset, muslim=good character. after all, we are supposed to follow the sunnah of Rasulullah s.a.w. and he is nothing but the walking al-Quran. a perfect example.


"ya Allah, sempurnakanlah iman kami, sempurnakanlah akhlak kami."

moment #11

"tahu tak, tadi saya baca buku tiba-tiba pandangan jadi gelap!"

"apa jadi?"

"retinal detachment?" (mentang esok exam mata)

"blackout? pitam?"

"...maybe its the sun." maklumlah dah malam pun.

"tak lah! saya tertidur..hehehe"

(-_-)"

Dila says:
tomorrow i'll be having my final exam for third year. it feels so unreal when past 1 year has been so relaxing, honeymoon year said them.

takut exam.yes.
tapi lagi menakutkan adalah lepas ni masuk final year. all this while never thought that it would be this fast. been thinking that i'll have more time to 'adjust' in this course. fuhhh~ i'd say we're falling into quicksand, baby! don't panic and lay on your back. pray hard to Allah that we will survived. biiznillah, another 2 years plus a few months to go. lagi tak boleh bayang macam mana, sebab lepas tu dah kena diagnosis dan rawat orang sakit.. history, DDx, Dx, Rx etc.. ok, muntah sekarang!

Allahu Rabbi! strengthen the heart of this weak soul.



Allah says:
"Is not God enough for His servant? But they try to frighten thee with other (gods) besides Him! For such as God leaves to stray, there can be no guide."
(Quran, 39:36)

wordless wednesday #18

esok dah exam!

All the Best for myself..
bittaufiq wannajah, dila!
have faith in Allah.
selamat balik malaysia lepas exam.

Theory Examination

27/12/2012

Ophthalmology

28/12/2012

Otorhinolaryngology (ENT)

29/12/2012

Community Medicine I

31/12/2012

Community Medicine II

Practical Examination

5, 7 & 8 January 2013

nota kaki:

• poyo je tulis ucapan buat diri sendiri. hahaha XD
• moga dipermudahkan segala urusan. ameen~

defining definition

It is funny when we are trying hard to define every single things in our lifes, when in fact that some of the things are subjected to the feeling which an individual perceives. An attempt to define an abstract subject is merely trying to objectify an abstract painting where the true value lies in the eyes that see it, not according to the price tag nor depends on the average opinion.

True value of a human being is not by just being normal, for normal is nothing but average. To define a single soul with similar labels like the other is injustice. How would it feel to be treated as a product of mass production, same quality which deserve the same treatment? Fair enough for you?

When you are trying hard to define yourself, to let people hear your inner voice, to be heard even if it means that you are being different from society, you are proned to jugdement and liable to be treated like a stranger.  Yes, you choose to be that strange! You want to give up? But you said repeatedly that you do not want to be just average. You want to be something else, you want to define yourself and yet now you are running away?

Say, people are being nice but the one who judge you is yourself. Would you have different opinion? Would you stand tall against the ‘person’ that you believed  to know you well?

...

...

...



Say, Bismillah and choose your path. May Allah be with you. Always.






nota kaki:

• Too much of definition in the book to be remembered makes me ramble like this. TT_TT <--- mak aih, apa benda yang kau ‘ramble’ ni dila? (said the ‘other person’ in me)

wordless wednesday #17

there's nothing special about tulip. neither it is a big flower nor a significant symbol of something.
but i love it.

moments #10

"kau beli buku ape ni?" sambil belek-belek bungkusan yang tak nampak isi kat dalam.

"One Hundred Names."

"buku nama baby eh?" sengih. terbayang mungkin la nak cari nama bakal anak sedara ke.. nama anak ke

"...buku Cecelia Ahern la!" jawab dengan muka pelik. senyum pun macam konpius sikit..

"oooo...haha~" jalan balik bilik.

nota kaki:

• cover buku dia lawa.

moments #9

conversation in whatsapp group which i choose to be a spectator and smile widely across the continent.

"tak tido lagi ke? dah lewat dah." jam di Malaysia menunjukkan 1.20 pagi.

"tak. tengah kerja ni. awak pulak tengah buat ape?" pelik memandangkan yang bertanya juga belum tidur.

"tengah oncall dekat department Obstetric&Gynaecology."

"ooo.. tengah tunggu orang beranak la ni eh?" 

*    *    *    *   *

"penatlah kerja kita ni.. kenapa lah kita pilih ni dulu kan?" rasa berat dan terbeban barangkali.

" Rezeki!" jawab orang di seberang sambil tunjuk muka senyum =)

"ooh.. haha~ yalah!" 

nota kaki:

• jawapan ringkas yang buat diri terus angguk kepala. moga rezeki ini yang mendekatkan pada DIA. ameen~
• indeed that's the answer that you need but not what you expect.
• keep telling myself to study. study for the knowledge and for Allah, not for the sake of exam only. kuat dila! jangan malas, please.

manusia akan terus belajar walau sampai detik kematian pun

`Umar (ra) said, “Do not learn knowledge for three things and do not leave it for three things. 

Do not learn it to dispute over it, to show off with it, or to boast about it. 

Do not leave seeking it out of shyness, dislike for it, or contending with ignorance in its stead.”

we are just an tiny speckle in this universe.

رَبِّ زدْنيِ عِلْماً وَ رْزُقْنيِ فَهْماً

O Allah! Advance me in Knowledge and true understanding.

moments #8

"if it is possible and i have a choice, i don't want to get married to a doctor."

"kalau tak nak kawen dengan doktor, habis tu nak kawen dengan siapa? cikgu ke?"

"hmm.. cikgu pun boleh. pastu farmer...." jawab dengan muka yakin.

"hah? like seriously a farmer? ni apa kes ni? mesti sebab selalu sangat dah tulis kat case sheet patient, occupation=farmer.." terkejut dan tergelak kuat dalam masa yang sama.

"hahaha... no, i was imagining a farmer that have a farm, meadow etc.." orang yang jawab pun ikut gelak jugak.

"oh, itu kalau farmer dekat Norway! apa daaaa.."

somewhere in Norway

been wasting 11 days of my study weeks without doing anything productive.


2 more weeks to go and i haven't even finish half of the portion of one subject.
ottoke?

now i am panicking!!!

kalau tiba-tiba ada salji...

Kalau tiba-tiba ada salji, saya adalah orang yang paling gembira kerana seumur hidup saya belum pernah merasa bagaimana pengalaman dengan salji. Mana mungkin bumi Malaysia ataupun India turun salji bukan? Saya membayangkan bahawa salji adalah satu keajaiban dunia, salah satu tanda kekuasaan Allah yang Esa. Putih, bersih dan suci, pasti satu pemandangan yang membuatkan anda teruja dan nafas terhenti buat seketika.
Kalau tiba-tiba ada salji, saya mahu memandang dari tingkap dengan perasaan ajaib(?) (amazed/miracle/excitement) yang pastinya membuatkan mata membuntang, jantung berdegup macam biasa je kot dan menarik nafas dalam-dalam kerana merasa seperti di dalam mimpi. kepingan-kepingan salji yang jatuh berguguran seperti kristal yang berkilau.....

ok, tak boleh dah nak tulis karangan "kalau tiba-tiba ada salji..."
ya Allah..rupanya memang dah berkarat bakat menulis dalam format ayat bahasa melayu yang betul.

abaikan sahaja usaha menulis karangan tu. macam tak sampai je maksud sebenar. heh.
kalau la tiba-tiba ada salji, mungkin aku pergi tempat bersalji atau salji turun kat india/malaysia, benda yang aku nak buat adalah tengok salji tu jatuh. dari coklat warna tanah sampailah putih dilitupi salji. snow flakes that fall from the sky surely feels like a miracle. amazingness! <--ada ke word ni?

dah lepas tengok salji dan salji pun dah bertimbun kat luar, aku nak baring je atas salji. usaha membuat snow angel mungkin? hehe
i want to feel the snow with all the senses.. yes, including eat the clean snow! (kalaulah ada orang kencing ewwww)

lepas tu.........
errr, nak buat ape eh?

maybe i'll walk and see the usual path covered in snow. mesti cantik kan?
did you know there's one quote,

"Kindness is like snow. It beautifies everything that it covers."

dan tiba-tiba aku terjelepok jatuh sebab licin.

lepas tu takde plan lain dah. snow fight? snowman? ski? sleep comfortable in my bed wrapped in duvet.
buat ais kacang dari snow. haha

oh! terlupa satu benda. the geeky? nerd? part of me.
they said that each snowflake is different from one another.
so i wish to examine them under microscope. one by one.
can you imagine that i'm running around with my glass slide just to catch the falling snowflakes. lepas tu bawak cepat-cepat pergi kat microsope sebab takut cair. bila dah penat dan puas hati, betulkan letak cermin mata dan tersenyum lebar. eh? aku mana pakai cermin mata.. (-__-)"
....tapi kena ada microscope dulu! *sad*

“Snowflakes, like people, are all different and beautiful, but they can be a nuisance when they lose their identity in a mob.”

yang ni menarik [link]

nota kaki:

• tiba-tiba membayangkan perasaan sendiri kalau ada salji lepas tengok AimanAzlan post video salji turun.. *jeles*
• boleh buat sugar cookies bentuk snowflakes je la...

wordless wednesday #16

parenting guide

TIP MENANGANI ANAK.

1. Jangan pukul anak dari lutut ke atas.
2. Jangan gunakan tangan/anggota tubuh kita utk memukul anak dengan tangan dan jangan sesekali menampar anak pakai tangan kita. nanti anak jadi bertambah degil dan nakal dan tak boleh control.
3. Rotan/pukul anak di telapak kakinya . Secara saintifiknya ada kaitan dengan refleksologi dan merangsang ke bahagian otak.
4. Mulakanlah hidup anak anda dengan nama panggilan yang baik. Nama panggilan yang kurang baik akan menyebabkan anak anda malu dan merasa rendah diri.
5. Berikan anak anda pelukkan setiap hari (Kajian menunjukkan anak yang dipeluk setiap hari akan mempunyai kekuatan IQ yg lebih kuat daripada anak yang jarang dipeluk).
6. Pandanglah anak anda dengan pandangan kasih sayang (Pandangan ini akan membuatkan anak anda lebih yakin diri apabila berhadapan dengan persekitaran).
7. Berikan peneguhan setiap kali anak anda berbuat kebaikan (Berilah pujian, pelukkan, ciuman, hadiah ataupun sekurang-kurangnya senyuman untuk setiap kebaikan yang dilakukannya).
8. Janganlah mengharapkan anak anda yang belum matang itu melakukan sesuatu perbuatan baik secara berterusan, mereka hanya kanak-kanak yang sedang berkembang. Perkembangan mereka buatkan mereka ingin mengalami setiap perkara termasuklah berbuat silap.
9. Apabila anda berhadapan dengan masalah kerja dan keluarga,pilihlah keluarga (Seorang penulis menyatakan anak-anak terus membesar. Masa itu terus berlalu dan tak akan kembali).
10. Di dalam membesarkan dan mendidik anak-anak, janganlah tuan/puan mengeluh. Keluhan akan membuatkan anak-anak merasakan diri mereka beban.
11. Dengarlah cerita anak anda, cerita itu tak akan dapat anda dengari lagi pada masa akan datang. Tunggu giliran anda untuk bercakap (Ini akan mengajar anak anda tentang giliran untuk bercakap)
12. Tenangkan anak anda setiap kali mereka memerlukannya.
13. Tunjukkan kepada anak anda bagaimana cara untuk menenangkan diri. Mereka akan menirunya.
14. Buatkan sedikit persediaan untuk anak-anak menyambut harijadinya. Sediakanlah hadiah harijadi yang unik walaupun harganya murah. Keunikan akan membuatkan anak anda belajar menghargai. (Anak2 yg dtg daripada persekitaran yang menghargai akan belajar menghargai orang lain).
15. Kemungkinan anak kita menerima pengajaran bukan pada kali pertama belajar. Mereka mungkin memerlukan kita mengajar mereka lebih daripada sekali.
16. Luangkanlah masa bersama anak anda diluar rumah, peganglah tangan anak-anak apabila anda berjalan dengan mereka. Mereka tentu akan merasa kepentingan kehadiran mereka dalam kehidupan anda suami isteri.
17. Dengarlah mimpi ngeri anak-anak anda. Mimpi ngeri mereka adalah begitu real dalam dunia mereka.
18. Hargailah permainan kesayangan anak anda. Mereka juga dalam masa yang sama akan menghargai barang-barang kesayangan anda. Elakkan daripada membuang barang kesayangan mereka walaupun sudah rosak. Mintalah kebenaran mereka sebelum berbuat demikian.
19. Janganlah membiarkan anak-anak anda tidur tanpa ciuman selamat malam.
20. Terimalah yang kadangkala anda bukanlah ibubapa yang sempurna. Ini akan mengurangkan stress menjadi ibu bapa.
21. Jangan selalu membawa bebanan kerja pejabat ke rumah. Anak-anak akan belajar bahawa kerja pejabat selalunya lebih penting daripada keluarga.
22. Anak menangis untuk melegakan keresahan mereka tetapi kadangkala cuma untuk sound effect sahaja. Bagaimanapun dengarilah mereka, dua puluh tahun dari sekarang anda pula yang akan menangis apabila rumah mula terasa sunyi. Anak-anak anda mula sibuk mendengar tangisan anak mereka sendiri.

nota kaki:

• tulis siap-siap kat blog supaya senang nak cari bila dah ada anak nanti.. hihi *giggle*
• parenting guide bukan untuk deal dengan anak je, dengan anak sedara, cousins yang kecik, anak jiran sebelah rumah, mungkin pesakit (peadiatrics) jugak...

donkey no zebra

~donkey with zebra's stripes~

caption gambar ni berbunyi begini:

A "Gaza-made zebra", (a donkey painted with stripes), stands in a cage at the "Happy Land Zoo" just outside Gaza City on October 3, 2009. Faced with an Israeli blockade, the Palestinian zookeepers were unable to bring in real zebras. Their solution was to paint a couple of donkeys at the zoo, which have become symbols of life under the Israeli blockade, a local attraction and a bit of a joke.

(source)

kadangkala kehidupan bukan dengan memiliki semuanya dengan sempurna, tetapi lebih kepada menghargai apa yang ada dan mewujudkan yang tiada untuk memberi makna bahagia. makna sempurna.
imperfectly perfect.

entahlah.
kadangkala rasa macam kita ni banyak songeh. tak sedar tahap diri cuma hamba.

ain't about what you don't have, it's about what you really want.

*     *     *     *     *

what really caught my eyes is not the picture but the word "Gaza". terbayangkan mereka yang walau dalam keterbatasan kerana sekatan dari Israel, masih mampu "make the best out of whatever they have."

moga semangat kita untuk Palestin tidak bermusim.
ameen ya Rabb~

have been thinking what to write in the blog for several days.

now i know what to brag about.. XD

a book. a smile. the view from my window.

yes, it is a brand new book.

yes, it is Yasmin Mogahed's.

yes, it is a gift from someone. a dear friend.

yes, i am really happy. 

^__^

i was having my afternoon nap. little that i know, a knock on the door which woke me up from the sleep brought a little surprise. can't believe my own eyes that i got the book. seronok sangat! yeayy~ dah ada beberapa buku untuk dibaca dalam flight balik nanti.. =)

but first, i have to go through the final exam.

wordless wednesday #15

beauty is just skin deep.

or maybe soft tissues deep?