there was ripples in our hearts, maybe thats better

Just imagine that I'm strumming the guitar and singing this song.

For you.

For me.

Lets just pretend.

Taylor Swift; Safe and Sound

I remember tears streaming down your face

When I said, I'll never let you go

When all those shadows almost killed your light

I remember you said, Don't leave me here alone

But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

Just close your eyes

The sun is going down

You'll be alright

No one can hurt you now

Come morning light

You and I'll be safe and sound

It's ok to have tears running down you cheek.
It's ok to be so afraid and broken.
It's ok, darling!
I would never ask you why are you  so fragile.

If you would ever want to hide in the dark corner just to cry, know that I'll be there for you in case you need me. I am not good with words but I would assure you that you'll have a shoulder to cry but I might just sit beside and cry with you instead.

al exam practic

semalam kena jadi babysitter kejap. makcik tu nak bawak anak dia yang baru deliver baby pergi tandas, jadi dia cakap kat aku dalam bahasa Kannada la suruh tengok-tengokkan cucu dia. aku macam, "err...oh, ok!"

pastu budak tu nangis, terus cuak limasaat, pergi kat budak tu pastu dodoikan dia, pujuk dia tapi masih jugak nangis sebab lapar agaknya. siap masukkan jari dalam mulut lagi. comel!

rasa macam nak angkat pastu dukung dan dodoikan baby tu.
but i am in dilemma whether i am supposed to/ can hold the baby in my arms because then it would be unprofessional yet it is a humane thing to do. after all, i was sitting for my final exam. what would the examiner think if i was holding the baby when it was my turn to present my case and to be 'interrogated'.
apa jadi kalau tiba-tiba baby tu berak atau kencing kat atas kot putih, kan comot dan busuk je. kan? kalau bukan exam takpe lagi.

ok, it was really a dilemma.

oh ye, masa dodoikan mula-mula tu baby tu tanak berhenti nangis pun. tiba-tiba bila baca zikir dia senyap. tapi sekejap je la. waktu tu rasa macam nak membuntangkan mata sepet ku ini.





nota kaki:

• wrote this after my Community Medicine Practical Exam which was about one month back. I'm not sure why I didn't published it at that time. *wondering*

under average social skills

one of the few things that you should know about me:

I hate confrontation!

...which include case presention (bedside clinical teaching), presenting seminar etc.

i tend to be nervous and forget all vocabulary. mumble words, incomplete sentences, involuntary movements, sweating (peluh macam ada misai. haha~)

and i always feel bad after my presentation.. TT__TT

no matter how good my slides are, the way that i am presenting my topic is worst!

sedih oh! *sembunyi dalam gua*