drop head gorgeous

teringat pulak word 'drop head gorgeous' ni..
ada one scene dalam [tunas]..
Kucai cakap kat Eve:
(lebih kurang macam ni la..dah x ingat sgt..)

"aku nak kau pakai baju bersopan sikit nanti. kalau nak drop head gorgeous pun pakai kebarung. lagi satu, kalau boleh aku nak kau pakai tudung nanti."

hmm..
sebenarnya nak cakap petang ni ada Malaysian Night.
theme: Manhattan by Moonlight
venue: rooftop of Eefa Hotel

alkisah,
biasalah, kanak-kanak memang excited pasal benda2 macam ni.
aku pun join orang pergi ber'shopping' di Belgaum.
Maruti Galli,Khade Bazaar, Ganpat Galli, Ramdev Galli..
ntah ape Galli lg kteorg jalan.
berjalanlah kteorang berhari2 mencari baju, kasut,accessories etc.
perempuan biasalah..
hahaha~
(Galli=Road)
p/s: kat sini xde shopping mall. the only mall is Nucleus Mall. so based on the name boleh agak kan nucleus tu besar mana je. ada a few shops, 2nd floor still empty n ada one cinema yg 'superb' tp slalu ada hindi movie je.

tp itu mereka.
aku cuma mengikut sebab bosan terperap dalam kampus je.
punyalah susah makcik2 ni mencari dress di bandar yang bernama Belgaum.
but at last, we found it. dress yg bukan india. =p
aku???
awal2 lagi sudah buat keputusan.
baju kurung je. yup, baju kurung. malas nak carik baju.
biarlah out of theme pun.
"Malay Girl sesat kat Manhattan"
menarik kan? huhu~

eh, eh..
ni bukan cerita asal la.
nak cerita pasal ni sebenarnya.
masa pergi kat kedai pakcik ni, aku nampak satu dress.comel.
makanya 5 org kanak2 ni masuk la dalam fitting room bersama2.
(rasanya tu office cum fitting room sbb kedai pakcik ni kecik je)
aku pun try la baju itu. it fits me nicely. n boleh pakai dgn pants.
TAPI, dress tu strapless. gila ape nk pakai macam tu. even pakai baju lain kat dalam pun I still think it's not proper. ntahla~
dan lagi satu, dah namanya dress. mestilah fit nicely (or ketat) kat bahagian atas.
so dengan hati yang berat aku pun buat keputusan:
TAK PAYAH BELI
sebab:
1. as much as aku tak suka orang pakai baju macam tu, aku pun TAK patut pakai jugak.
yelah, pakai baju tp org still boleh imagine susuk tubuh kita. scary~
2. dress tu mahal. Rs1095.. x membazir je ke kalau nak pakai sekali je?

nak jadi drop head gorgeous ke cik dila?
tak payah. nak drop head gorgeous pun pakai baju kurung moden sudah.
lupakah maksud hijab?
tak kan sebab nak nampak cantik satu hari, kena menanggung seksa neraka bertahun2 lamanya.
satu hari je tu...

an article about hijab.nice.
nota kaki: kadang2 aku rasa perempuan ni complicated. normalkah aku??

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ni nak cerita lagi.
sanggup ke nak baca?
hmm.. let the story begin.
one day, lepas mengada2 a.k.a acting dgn clucth bag n shawl budak2 ni, seseorang telah berkata:
"I think u're born in wrong religion la."
"Hey, why did u say that?" kata seseorang yang bukan aku.
aku masih senyap dan cuba memproses ayat tersebut.
"u see, she can really become a model n can act very well. Look at her face just now." she said like this because as a Muslim we have to wear hijab n cover our body n have to behave ourself especially in public. so, it will restrict me to become such a model,actress, singer or what so ever.
(aku baru lepas me'model'kan dress kawan aku. n act as if i'm the model, beauty peagent, n also perempuan gedik. not to mention I act as mak datin jugak..)
~end of that scene~

after that, i kept on thinking about those line:
"am I born in wrong religion?"
my answer to myself:
1. No, i'm not born in the wrong religion. I know Islam is the best for me.
2. I don't think hijab restrict me to do things that i wanted to do. It makes me feel safe. Kalau x pakai macam naked je..(maaf. ayat kurang bersopan sikit)

dan aku..
tak mahu jadi barang peragaan semata. membuka apa yang sepatutnya ditutup kerana mahu pujian semata. mahu digelar si cantik or gorgeous semata2 kerana paranoid. *no no no*
dan aku..
masih tak sempurna. mungkin masih belum sempurna hijab diriku.

ni ada lagi article. a nice one also.

dan lagi satu..=)



nota kaki:
#mahu tulis banyak2 tapi ayat dah tunggang langgang.
#MAAF kalau ada yang terasa.
#pasal hijab makes me feel safe, ada hidden story behind it.