selamat hari lahir, ayah!

hari ni hari lahir ayah saya..
tapi belum telefon malaysia lagi untuk ucapkan "Selamat Hari Lahir,Ayah!"

ayah dengarlah, betapa sesungguhnya ku mencintaimu.....

on this beautiful day, i thank Allah and my grandmother to bring you into this world..
without you, i might not ever exist to breath the air at this moment..

i know, you're so worried about your little girl though you never say it out loud..
you're so worried that you're actually considering not letting me go to India..
am i right, daddy? (mak bagitau..=p)

usually when we're on the phone, you'll only ask, "bila exam?" 
then you'll say, "jaga sembahyang!"
i knew you love me so much because you would hug me like you never want to let me go when i arrived at the airport or when you send me back to India..

we never talked about our feelings and all..
thus i want to write everything here or else i might burst into tears when i say it out loud or even end up in laughing coz i say all the mushy thingy..
when i say iloveyou, sometimes you become so awkward that you dont know what to say..
you can say iloveyou too, daddy.. =)
do you know, when i said that i'll have big grin while waiting for you to say that.. sweet!

i will always be your little girl!

when just spend much time together when i need you to help me settled all those application/letter/post things after SPM and A Level..
you said to Kak Ela that i resembled you much..
saya banyak cakap! macam ayah.. hihi~
not to mention that my 'sepet' eyes make me look like you more, i think..
dah besar ni, suka provoked ayah.. jahat kan?
selalunya kalau ayah cakap, takde siapa boleh ubah pendapat dia..
we'll end up with discussion? which i think more like an argument (in a good way) sampaikan mak kena cakap, "dah lah, dila.."
then i said, "kejap mak, sikit lagi point ni.."
dah habis cakap dua-dua senyum je..haha~

i remember when mom called to ask me about what colour that i want for my bedroom because i'm in KTT at that moment..
i dont know.. i just couldn't decide..
mom said when i asked her what colour would it be, "it's a surprise! you have to be back to see it yourself."
it was a very nice purple.. 2 tone purple which you choose it daddy..
i love it, it's so beautiful..

i dont know you favourite colour..=(
is it earth tone or maroon colour?

i still remember when i was in Standard 1, i used to fall asleep on the motorcycle when we were on our back home..
i just couldn't stand it because we have to go early and only be back after you finish your work..
you just ride motorcycle with one hands while with the other hands you hold me who was sleeping at the back so that i would not fall down..
i still remember that..
i used to fall asleep each and everyday, i think..

even if i could, i never wish to have any other dad that much better than you..
because of you, i am what i am now..

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

lastly, i want to dedicate this song for you..



for the man that i love, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! 

nota kaki:
bapak, mun kitak baca apa kamek tulis tok nak, harap kitak faham lah sebab sik pakey bahasa sarawak..
i wanted people who read it know how much i mean those words, how much i love you..