hidup akan mati

I feel like it has been a while since I post an entry. I mean a proper one. *sigh*
A while ago i thought and i wish to just vanish from the 'virtual world' but then again, it holds too much memories, something that i find it hard to let go. To pretend that i never wrote a blog. It's my baby! (sudaahhhhhhhh.... dia buat perangai gedik pulak~ *juling mata*) 

Actually I dont have anything particular thing to write at the moment.
tadi nampak ada orang tulis kat facebook status;

kawan skolah rendah dan skolah agama dolu..main same2 kat skolah agama..
still mengingati almarhum seorang yg comel dan berbakat besar
Allah lebiyh sayangkan kamu..
semoga ditempatkn dlm kalngn hamba allah yg beriman dan beramal soleh
inshaAllah berbahgia di sana..ameen

then she tagged this particular name and i being the curious cat, clicked on the profile because her name sounds familiar. i saw her profile picture, well nothing much actually. it just a flower with acronyms of her photography bussiness (i think so...)

my mind started to work, tried to recalled an instagram profile that i 'stalked' this morning and few days before. i believe that it was the same person.
maka terus capai phone, bukak akaun instagram, taip satu nama.

her recent photo was uploaded 13 hours ago.
no single sign that it will be the last photo.
i saw the same photo this morning. i was surprised actually to see those comments, to know my instinct was true.

i bet she didn't expect this, she never was.

Al-Fatihah for her.

she was young. i am young too.
like my adik junior said when her brother passed away;

"syarat mati bukan tua. syarat untuk mati adalah hidup."

....and I am very much alive right now.
I don't know when is my time.
I pray to Allah that when it is time, it will be the best time of my life. i want to meet HIM in my best condition of Imaan.

ameen, ameen, ameen ya Rabb.





nota kaki:

• This girl, she just graduated and about to get married in October. But who we are to challenge His plan? Innalillahiwainnailaihirajiun~ 
• Perempuan yang bertunang di dalam gambar tu bukanlah empunya instagram. She is also well and alive like us.