conscious

aku teringat yang kteorang selalu tulis kat case sheet patient,

"Patient is a.... bla... bla... bla..., conscious, cooperative, well oriented to time, place and person."

baru sedar yang banyak waktu dalam hidup ni kita tak sedar sebenarnya. sekadar hidup.
conscious doesn't only means that you are alive and awake.
but aware of every single things in our life, especially our 'niat', our intention.
whatever you do, is it solely because of Allah?

honestly, it is not that easy to purify our intention.
niatnya kadangkala memang kerana Allah, tapi ada je niat lain yang join sekali.
macam combo, 3 in 1, bercabang-cabang atau apa-apa yang sewaktu dengannya.
dalam pada meluruskan niat tu, banyaknya nampak silap.
tapi selalu butakan mata je.
moga Allah tak butakan hati..
TT__TT

ya Allah, hati manusia biasa yang aku ada ni mudahnya berbolak balik, mudahnya mata kabur kerana dunia, mudah sungguh hati ini tertipu, tergoda dengan yang sementara.

"Be conscious. By all means and senses."

usm-kle campus. petang 23102012.

look carefully. 

can you see how many dragonflies in the picture? 

subhanallah, lagi banyak, lagi cantik dari yang terakam di lensa kamera.

(maaf, aku takde kamera canggih segala bagai nak tangkap gambar hebat.)

nota kaki:

• membina bangunan atas asas yang tidak kukuh, tinggi mana pun bangunan tu, eventually akan roboh. moga jatuhnya 'binaan' kita di dunia ni takkan jatuhkan kita ke dalam jurang neraka Jahannam..

~surah At-Taubah, 9:109-110

once upon a night

"Imagine that you are Puteri Gunung Ledang and the Sultan has already fulfilled your wishes, describe how you would like your dream wedding to be?"

personal question that i don't really want to share the answer.
its not that i have something in my mind. it just blank.
so much of being in reality, i have amnesia of my dream wedding..

so, this is my answer,

"Since the Sultan has spend so much government budget to propose me, of course I'll marry him! ^__^

But I'll be the wise queen ever. On my wedding day, I will invite everyone in the country and let them be treated like a royalty. Since "pengantin" is the "raja sehari" but on my case I will forever be the queen so I want everyone to be treated like a royalty on my wedding day."

it just makes me really wonder, how a wallflower like me could be up there?
surely it would be one of the stories in my version of A Thousand and One Night.

nota kaki:

• cerita dah nak expired, baru nak tulis kat blog kan? hehehe
  
  
  

Some flowers grow best in the sun while others do best in the shade. Allah always knows what is best for us, so HE puts us where we grow the best.

aku rasa lagu ni "deep".
tak suka pun bila mula-mula dengar lagu ni kat radio.
bila ada orang suruh dengar, baru perasan yang ada makna yang mendalam.
suka!!! ^__^

Tersesat malu bertanya

Tak tahu tak tahu ke mana

Terlalu banyak alasannya

Duduk terdiam

Menyusur di kaki lima

Terlihat bayang wajah kelmarin

Tersentuh hati bagai luruh

Tanya sama pokok apa sebab goyang

Jawab angin yang goncang

Terbang burung terbang

Patah sayap diduga

Seandainya rebah

Kau masih ada

Terlalu mahu dan mahu

Terlupa apa yang perlu

Terlalu banyak alasannya

Duduk terdiam

Tak mudah namun tak susah

Terserah atas pilihan

Tersentuh hati mula luruh

for whatever reason it is,

"....KAU masih ada...."

nota kaki:

- untuk awak, i think you know who you are:

• like HE said, "verily after every difficulty there is a relief."
• semoga seperti dedaunan yang gugur di musim luruh, akan gugur dosa-dosa kerana sabar atas musibah yang melanda dan yakin dengan janji Allah Yang Esa.