I wanted to write longer just now but let just keep it short and sweet. sweet la sangaaaattt
Honestly I am tired most of the time and have short attention span, so I understand the pain of reading long post if you wanted to.

So how have you been?

Like my dear friend used to say when we bumped with each other at hospital,

"Everyone is getting married la!"
*read this in a miserable tone*

I might be considered old as I am still successfully remained single until now but I still feel like I am still young and need not to be worry being an adult yet. This one you can call it denial.

Everyone either getting married or having kids.

As for me, my only concerned now merely evolved around basic things like,

"When can I sleep?"

"When can I eat?"

"When is my next off-day?"

and if you are asking the same golden question too, I don't have answer to it. I am too still waiting for it. Waiting for 'the one' to appear out of nowhere with the good intentions. Until then we just eat keropok and watch TV la ye? It seems so distant right now. *sambung kunyah keropok*

However, the world as we know now become more difficult. One simple reason for that is HUMAN.
I pray to Allah to bless us, the tough people of the rough time to remain steadfast in Iman and never stop believing.

post pertama tahun 2016

“What happens when people open their hearts?"

"They get better.” 

― Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

It is already March and this is only my first post for this year. I suspected people are not on blog anymore but nevermind. It is hard for me to leave though I seldomly write now.

This is probably not the most important thing, not that I am married or something but I am a working lady now eventhough it doesn't feels like working, it is slavery. What I meant was that it did not matched my childhood idea of a career woman. Sorry lah ye, sometime ideas are just difficult to change. I am not in denial, well not too much la haha....

Housemanship in a nutshell is tough but somehow you remained alive although you feel worst all the time but it is okay. You think you are going to die but you didn't. Someone else is dying or dead and you can't do anything about it other than feeling helpless and hopeless all the time. Err, let's not talk about this too much shall we? I can feel the negativity is going to engulfed us anytime soon.

*running away from reality*

nota kaki:

• I need a travel companion - a permanent one. In this world and also hereafter.

Pretty doctor(s)

I stumbled upon a totally random IG. A doctor, ENT surgeon to be exact. Oh wow! She is lovely. Pretty and absolutely has a wonderful sense of fashion. Seems like she is living a perfect life.

And I looked at myself.

Another wow!
A bigger WOW in fact.

Belum mandi. Messy hair and lying on the couch. Basically jobless for now. Ehousemen portal will open for application tomorrow noon so we'll see if I get the job next month.

Terus jatuh self esteem I, okay!

I need new clothes! I need more shawls! I need to be skinny! I need to be perfect!


Then I thought to myself.

Naaahhhhh

This is not good, in fact this is what kind of things that gonna kill me from inside. To be someone else and try to fit in. Who knows that you are born to stand out?
*hide quickly in a corner*




I read somewhere that girls are wearing pretty and stylish clothes, make-ups, basically be a living Barbie. Kalau Barbie kita tahu la memang tak logik nak ikut untuk hidup di dunia nyata tapi kalau ada perempuan yang sempurna (almost) mestilah kita terasa macam logik je nak jadi perfect flawless gituuuuu. Gila! Orang kata kalau perempuan pakai untuk lelaki, they would be wearing nothing.

Kena kurangkan stalk ig orang sempurna ni, kena cari orang yang mampu setia dalam susah senang kita.

Dua benda mudah ni pun susah.

This. Couldn't ask for better and shouldn't ask too.