Monday, May 3, 2010

i.........don't know what to say

i'm here back in Belgaum after spending a wonderful holiday in Mangalore..
baru sampai pukul 8 pagi tadi..
lain kali nak pergi lagi la lepas semua kedai kat city centre dah bukak n nak melawat bunga-low kanak-kanak yenepoya..

nothing much to be shared..
but i really love those time when everyone was together in kak mus's house..
seronok~
got keychain from anati and kak mun..
Terima Kasih~
anati bagi keychain skeleton,gler rock tp cam scary..


sekarang tengah memblog sebab malas nak pergi kelas..
penat la konon-kononnya..
haish~
syuhhh..setan g main jauh-jauh!!!
jangan kacau la...
ke aku ni patut mandi bunga supaya semangat tu datang balik..
mom, i'm sorry sebab malas g sekolah macam dulu-dulu lagi..

sometimes, i just hate myself..
hate because i didn't do what i was supposed to do..
hate because i get mad and hate other people
hate because i can't be what i always wanted to be...

sekadar gambar hiasan semata

or am i actually angry with myself???
what ever it is, it just make me feel bad...
i hate this feeling..

kadang-kadang aku pun tak pasti aku berdiri kat mana..
jalan lurus ke jalan bengkok ke jalan mati..
jalan gelap atau jalan yang terang benderang atau mungkin jalan yang cahayanya suram dan malap..
aku kat mana eh???

nota kaki:
  1. sampai lambat kat Mangalore sebab bas rosak..
  2. thanx Mangalorians for hospitality given to us.. errmm,ada ke Mangalorian sebenarnya??
  3. lebih kurang sebulan lagi nak preliminary exam.. takut~~~
  4. i don't want to hate myself..

6 comments:

huda laa said...

hehe,,dila oo dila..syok nya pi jejalan~..
kembali dgn semangat~

Aizat said...

have faith in yourself :)

dila_zarifah said...

to cik huda sayang:
*giggle*
seronok!!! tapi penat la..
tahun ni awak raya kat india kan?
insyaAllah,blh jumpa masa tu..=D
kalau nk g Mangalore kita tunggu semua kedai kat city centre tu bukak dulu eh? hehe~

dila_zarifah said...

to Aizat:
"Faith is believing when it is beyond the power of reason to believe."
begitukah maksud anda?

faith=yakin..
kena yakin that i can go through all this stuff..
harus semangat!!!

Aizat said...

yeap yakin dengan diri anda :) u said to me before, i know you can do it. and it's my turn to say i know you can do it :)

dila_zarifah said...

so conclusion is:
WE CAN DO IT! =D
Malaysia Boleh...haha~

*general statement*
kalau org lain yakin kita boleh buat, knapa kita sendiri x yakin..
betul x?
those people that believe in us must have seen something that we can't see or never realise..
~because u may live up to that trust~