as we grow up

bila kita dah makin besar, makin dewasa, cara berfikir pun dah lain..
we have become wiser to make the best decision for our future..
but of course, confusion... dilemma... ain't letting us to make an easy decision..

dulu kan, masa kecik-kecik berangan nak kawen dengan putera raja..
yup, influenced by the fairy tales where in the end there would be "happily ever after"

lepas tu matang sikit, tulis la segala list panjang berjela tentang lelaki idaman..
ada yang nak kurus, ada nak comel-comel, ada yang nak pakai specs, ada nak yang putih melepak, ada yang nak muka macam oarang korea, ada yang nak macam orang putih..
macam-macam lah..
belum masuk lagi kriteria dalam perangai pulak..
nak yang sweet la, nak yang ada sense of humor and the list goes on...

*tergelak sekejap*

good old days...

tapi kalau tanya aku sekarang, aku nak bakal suami yang macam mana, aku tak tahu nak jawab apa..
the truth is i never really think about it now.
i never think how 'he' would be..
maybe i'm just afraid to list down all the criteria when in fact i'm not be able to find one..

source: tumblr

perhaps, it would be the one that i can sing, " you are the only exception."
and of course on top of it, i want someone who have strong foundation in faith-Islam that would be able to guide me to HIM..

aish,cerita pasal kawen pulak kan?

dah, dah.. kita kembali ke pangkal jalan..

apa yang aku nak cakap sebenarnya, bila kita semakin dewasa, kita lebih realistik membuat keputusan..
bukan setakat pasal lovey dovey segala, tapi semua benda..
dari cita-cita masa kecik hingga kita sambung belajar, kita pilih ikut cita-cita dulu atau ikut minat dan keperluan semasa..
bila nak beli barang pulak, somehow kita boleh menilai yang mana kehendak dan mana keperluan..

sometimes, i wish that i never grow up..
being an adult is difficult..
full of responsibilities which you can't never take for granted..

i'm getting older.. T_T