gimme a break~

penat..
i'm just tired of everything..
lagi2 nak balik ni, lagi banyak benda yang menyesakkan otak..
lecturer pulak asyik nak marah2 je..
otak pulak makin xde semangat nak studi n g kelas..
penat..
penat berfikir benda yg x sepatutnya..
habis segala glucose yg x berapa nak byk tu diguna..
i just wanna break..
i want to do some shopping b4 i'm going back but it seems that time will restrict me..

I will never be, I will never be you, no
I will always be, I will always be me, that I know
But oh, even though I'm happy being me
I want to get away from all this harsh reality, oh

Gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not..

can i be someone else?
i want to learn how to play piano..
horse riding, swimming, diving..
mahu blaja driving n ada driving license sendiri..
mahu blaja masak sampai tahap chef hotel 5 bintang..
mahu blaja menjahit, melukis...
mahu melancong keliling dunia..
mahu jadi isteri mithali wanita serba boleh aka iron lady..

can i run from da fact that i'm a medical student?
that i have really big responsibilities..
mcm x percaya je 'Ratu Tidur' dalam kelas dah jadi medical student..
but i'm not living in fairy tale where Sleeping Beauty can sleep all day long..

can i choose not to grow up despite the fact that i'm getting older each day?
kalau dah besar, maksudnya tanggungjawab pun besar..
jiwa pun kena besar barulah x mudah hilang semangat..

tapi............
enough of tapi2 dila..
time to move on..
to start with new 'azam'..
azam: to be a better me..ni cik has yg tnya

pakcik penyelaras hal mentor mentee bagi pesanan ni..
(he's a professor in Pathology department)

"Read, read and read..sampai muntah hijau This is the age for reading. You wouldn't get the chance back if you don't read now.."

dalam Al-Quran pun dah suruh baca..
wahyu pertama pulak tu..
jadi aku harus baca buku..MUST!!!

ganbatte ne~

Salam Maal Hijrah.. a new year, a start of new beginning

p/s: maaflah, post yang agak emo dan merapu je..

don't quit

buat cik sEeKeRz yg tengah tension..
(rasa cam an pernah publish kat blog je..)
this is also for u who read this..
yang terasa nak putus asa..
yang rasa macam hidup ni susah..

dah namanya berjuang, mana mungkin mudah..
walau sesukar mana pun, keep hanging on, keep moving on..

Mengharap senang dalam berjuang
Bagai merindu rembulan di tengah siang
Jalannya tak seindah sentuhan mata
Pangkalnya jauh hujungnya belum tiba

~saujana:suci sekeping hati~

right now, i can't pick the right words
though words may console ur heart..
ni curi Bill Gates pun words:
"Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you find yourself."

give ur best but don't give all that u have bcoz:
"The more man puts into God, the less he retains in himself. The worker puts his life into the object; but now his life no longer belongs to him, but to the object."
Karl Marx

and someone told me that,
usaha tu yg penting walaupun outcomes x seberapa sebab efforts=pahala..
investment untuk account Akhirat..

keep shining n be strong like what 'intan' supposed to be..=)

The Don't Quit Poem

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
- Author unknown

Perkukuhkan bahteramu...
kerana samudera ini amat dalam..
perbanyakkanlah bekalanmu...
kerna perjalanan ini amat panjang
ikhlaskanlah amalanmu...
kerna pencatatmu amat teliti...

"Saat kekalahan itu bermula bila kamu berasa lemah dalam perjuangan dan saat kemenangan itu bermula bila kamu melawan rasa lemah itu.” (Syed Qutb)

selamat pengantin baru..=p

~akad nikah kak cma n majlis pertunangan kak cla~

05 Disember 2009..
my cousin dah selamat diijabkabulkan dengan tunangnya..
Alhamdulillah~
yang sorg lagi dah jadi tunang orang..
yeah, on the same date.. they're siblings actually..

Congratulation to Kak Cma n Kak Cla!!
more story[click here]

anak2 pakcik Edon..(Edon is my late grandfather)

~moga bahagia dalam meniti kehidupan berumah tangga~

this week, my neighbour pulak yang kawen..
pun x boleh nak attend..
sedihnya..
lagi sedih sbb kena wat practical sampai pukul 5 sabtu ni..
agak2 boleh x nak ponteng?

next week, aku pulak..
opss, bukan kawen la..
cuma kembali bersatu dengan yg tercinta..
aku balik rumah la..yes,malaysia!

tiba2 sebab demam org kawen kat malaysia, aku teringin..
teringin nak tau my parents punya reaction kalau tiba2 aku cakap nak kawen..
eh, bukan gatal tapi saja nak menduga..
apa agaknya reaksi dyorg eh?
tup2, dyorg bagi 'green light' maunya aku pengsan je kat situ..

haish~awal lagi.. 1st year pun x abis lg ni..
this is my prediction:
my mom:
i guess dia akan ckp awal sangat nak kawen ni.. bla..bla..
my dad:
this is the best part..
confirm akan kena ceramah panjang..
tak kesah la kalau green light ke red light.. mesti ada..

teringat last time call rumah..
masa tu my dad tgh bagi nasihat pjg2..
tiba2 keluar ayat,"....bergayut kat tepon lama2...(x igt dah)...."

PAUSE!!!!!!
was he talking about me?
ada miscommunication ni..

and then dia sambung balik ceramah dia..
pastu keluar ayat,"....walatakrabbuzinna.."

aiseyh, mmg miscommunication sgt2 ni..
tu kan ayat jangan dekati zina ke??

"Dan janganlah kamu mendekati zina, (zina) itu sungguh suatu perbuatan keji dan suatu jalan yang buruk."

Surah Al-Isra',17:32

itulah ayah saya..
risau sangat kot kat anak dia ni..
actually x sempat pun nak jelaskan status kat dia..
pastu towards the end of our conversation,
he said,"bapak bukan apa..bapak bangga mun kitak orang dapat suami isteri yang beriman..bapak maok generasi kita bertambah baik, makin beriman.."
*some modification of the sentences here and there*

this is dedication for pengantin baru..

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